Day 09 - How you hope your future will be like

Gah again with the future stuff. According to a time perspective test that I took, I am a present perspective kind of girl. I live in the now and not think much about the future.

But okay. I don't see myself working as a designer or illustrator for a long time. But I'll have a husband and not lacking whatsoever, and just serving The Lord whatever way it is.


SCHOOL

So lately consultation hasn't been going well. But at least I know where I stand. In a place where I need (a lot of) improvement. I have no direction of where I'm going. I'm just blank.

My dad paid so expensively for me to take this Degree program, just to make me learn how to think. And so far it's just so challenging. And I feel I learn more from my peers rather than the lecturers. Sometimes it's like I just don't know what they are talking about, there's a disconnect in my brain. Maybe I'm just slow.

Here's my analogy. Pirates can't find a treasure if there's no treasure map, yes? And I'm not even asking for the treasure map, nor where it is. I'm asking you to tell me how to read the map. How would I know if X marks the spot if I have never heard the concept before? I have the data in front of me, but I don't know what to think of it. It registers to nothing. I don't know. Hhh.

I feel the lecturers have been trying to teach us how to use the map. But their way of teaching isn't like, "this is a tree. Walk around it to continue your journey". It's more to like, "Here's a seed. If you put it under a layer of soil and water it well, it will start to bear leaves. After a few years it will grow taller and their trunks will grow bigger. When it's big enough, people can use their leaves and trunks" and we should figure out ourselves that it's a frikking tree and you need to walk around it to continue your journey of finding your treasure. Some people figured it out. I'll just get stuck in the fact that there's a tree there and meddle on what I need to do to remove it. Do I make sense?

So yeah. Need God's wisdom. I'm not that smart.


And here's a video by GD of Bigbang, which I would take time to watch purely because of the visuals.

Feeling pretty blue today.

I need my God. I just need my Jesus.

Tomorrow I'm having class with Winnie and David. I don't even want to think about it.

I want Jesus and that's all.

I miss Ghon. I miss Ce Linda. I kinda miss Mikey.

I'd really love to talk to Ce Linda now. She's magical. Just listening to her and everything will change.

But most of all I want my God now.

So bye.

I'm having a hard time concentrating on doing my dissertation. Every few minutes I would get bored and do other stuff for a few minutes, then get back to work.

God help.

Day 08 - The moment you felt most satisfied with your life.

I think I missed the 30 Days Challenge for like.. What? 2 days? I was so busy on Sunday and Monday.

Anyway. I've never felt really satisfied with my life. And I don't know whether it's a good thing or not.

And don't get me wrong. I am definitely thankful. I know that I am so blessed. I live a happy blessed life!

But I feel satisfaction is a different thing. I mean, yes I do feel satisfied when I finish a task or something. But it's a small scale satisfaction.

Hmm. I really can't think of a particular moment to answer this question. Sorry for disappointing you. Maap.

Well, ttyl!

Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.

I'm a taurus.

So I went to www.astrology.com to compare what they said about taurusians and me.

So it says:

Taurus, the second sign of the zodiac, is all about reward. Unlike the Aries love of the game, Taurus loves the rewards of the game. Think physical pleasures and material goods, for those born under this sign revel in delicious excess.
I guess I'm pretty competitive. But I enjoy the game too. But so far so true.


They are also a tactile lot, enjoying a tender, even sensual, touch. 
What's this supposed to mean? I like to touch things, not be touched.


Taurus adores comfort and likes being surrounded by pleasing, soothing things. Along these lines, they also favor a good meal and a fine wine. The good life in all its guises, whether it's the arts or art of their own making (yes, these folks are artistic as well), is heaven on Earth to the Taurus-born.
The good meal part is so true. Yeah I like arts. Is it heaven on earth? I don't know.


It's the Bull that serves as the Taurus's mascot, and along with that comes the expectation that these folks are bull-headed and stubborn.
I don't know. What do you think? I've been learning to be less stubborn and listen to people.


That said, Taurus doesn't start out with the intention of getting stuck. They simply want to get things done, and it's that steady, dogged persistence that winds up being viewed as stubbornness.
If you think I am, than there's the explanation :p


Bulls are actually among the most practical and reliable members of the zodiac, and they are happy to plod along, as it were, in pursuit of their goals.
Practical and reliable. Teehee. But I guess it depends. If the task is uninteresting then don't rely on me. You've been warned.


Taurus is ruled by Venus, a lovely goddess who didn't deny herself many things. In ancient Roman mythology, Venus was the Goddess of Love, Beauty and Pleasure, and Taurus has pretty much taken up where she left off. Bulls are fond of all things pretty, whether it's in their home, at a museum or on the stage. Life as one sweet pas de deux is how the Taurus-born like it. To onlookers, this may look like so much materialism and blessed excess, but Bulls really aren't interested in living without beauty in their lives. Beauty to the Bull also comes in the way of a happy home life, one that includes a partner and a stable relationship.
80% true. Although my current room in Singapore is not beautiful at all. If I can stay at our own new flat, and have the allowance and permission to decorate it, would love to do it.
However, I think I'm not those squeal squeal person when seeing stuff I like. And functionality over looks for me.


Taurus values harmony in their personal lives, so they'll work hard on keeping their mate happy. 
TRUE. For friendships though. I avoid any sorts of debate. I'd rather stay quiet and let it slip, than having any sort of confrontation.


Bulls tend toward conservatism, and this is often seen in their day-to-day behavior. No far-out schemes  or shrieking ultimatums here. Taurus much prefers to take each day slowly and steadily and work toward their ultimate goal. Along these lines, those born under this sign are happy to stick with their projects until they have reached a successful conclusion. They are also extremely patient and dependable along the way.
Err no. I get bored easily with a project. The faster the better.


These folks may not have a hair-trigger temper, but it's short enough. Bulls in a hissy fit can get pretty argumentative, but eventually they'll calm down and come back to center, since these folks would much rather be Zen. The Earth in this sign does tend to act as a balancing mechanism so that things never get truly out of hand. For every one person who considers the Bull a pain, there are two who will say 'No way!' and happily take the Taurus' gentle charms any day.
I can get pretty moody. When that happens, I usually review my relationship with The Lord.
And yes, If I do have an opinion, I can get argumentative, but then again, if after a while there's no conclusion, I'd rather shuddup.


Seeing as how Bulls are generally strong and well-built, it's no surprise that these folks enjoy testing their strength on the field of play. Expect to find a Bull engaged in a spirited game of hoops or mountain climbing. Hiking is also a favorite pastime, since it keeps Taurus close to their beloved earth. Indoor adventures are also favored by Bulls, which is why the opera or ballet is right up a Taurus's alley.
Yes, I'm adventurous! I'd love to try new stuff! But I never tried all those that are mentioned above. But would love to! Mountain climbing, hiking.. Bring it on!


When it comes to love, the Taurus-born are devoted, romantic and somewhat possessive. Their sensual nature has a way of erasing any mistakes!
The possessive might be true. And I think I'm more possessive towards good friends rather than boyfriends (which so far is still inexistant).


Since Taurus rules the neck and throat, Bulls would be wise to keep a silky scarf at hand, ideally in a warm (and soothing) earth tone.
Erm thanks?


The great strength of Taurus is in their stability, loyalty and dogged determination. Bulls want to get the job done, and they will. What better way to get the riches they so fervently crave?
The last sentence makes us look so matre. Maybe 40% truth for this last statement.


So there you go.


Lastly, Here's some quick doodle I made in class. Bye!

Day 06 - Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.

Erm... I don't know how you would really classify something into interesting.. But I hope these are interesting enough!

1. Am playing Monopoly Deal with Bryan and Aiko now.
2. Though I study design, I am always fascinated with science. Especially Biology. I love Biology in highschool! And now, am also fascinated with stuff outer space. As you can see in this post.
3. I have a very long torso. I am taller than most guys while sitting down.
4. I have an extreme pear bosy type. Small waist, bigger bottom half.
5. Still believing for a miracle that somehow my legs would grow longer and slimmer, and my torso would grow shorter.
6. I like watching cooking shows. I like Jamie Oliver, Nigella.. And now, my favorite youtube cook right now is Laura Vitale. But I can't cook.
7. I like following celebrity gossips.
8. I can't really talk to guys I find handsome. It takes time. A long time.
9. I don't really know what I want to be in the future.
10. I can't sleep earlier than 2 am. If I do, means I'm too tired.
11. I can't stand drama queens. An exception for Aiko. She's one heck of a drama queen but I still love her. Still, no overreacting around me please.
12. When I like someone (either a real person or a manga character), I would kind of create our own storyline in my head and get so immersed in it. Usually at night before sleep.
13. I would love to get a tattoo someday! A black and white one.
14. Favorite Youtube channel: Clothes Encounters.
15. Favorite apostle: John
16. Favorite band: Hillsong hands down.
17. Would love to own a Dr. Martens boots.
18. Having my convocation later. Honestly, not that excited :/ I don't know why.
19. I can't stand cold weather. It hurts my nose to breathe cold air. And my hands turns cold easily in the movies.
20. I read a lot of mangas. And I read shonen mangas. Naruto, Bleach, One Piece, Deathnote, Flame of Recca, Samurai Deeper Kyo, Shaman King.. The list goes on. I'm a tomboy!
21. I get emotionally attached to the mangas I read.
22. Potential Running Man Boyfriend: Gwangsoo. Gary is the second choice. Jong Kook's face is not bad, but he reminds me too much of my dad. HaHa and Joong Ki is a big no no. And the rest are just too old and taken. I dont like flower boys as a boyfriend. I think I'm fiercer than them.
23. Potential One Piece Boyfriend: Zoro.
24. Real life dream boyfriend: Jeremy Lin.
25. Likes cheap stuff. I think my mind is programmed that way already. Even if I have a million dollars, I would still go to F21 rather than LV. The only thing that I think is worth investing are shoes. Still, my shoes are relatively cheap.
26. Loves Daiso.
27. Doesn't like online shopping (yet). Doesn't like the wait.
28. Finds acting interesting. And likes stalking people on facebook and twitter. Watch out.
29. Plans to take vocal lessons at Believers Music soon. Be a better singer for God and YRC!
30. Am an alien.

TTYL! 

Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your life.

When I was a kid and I've done something wrong, and I knew my parents will scold me, that's when I thought I'd just rather die. Because I was so scared with my dad. Extremely. Terrified. Of. Him.

He used to beat me when I was a kid. That caused deep trauma and fear.

Parents, your kids doesn't know that you beat them out of love. They don't think that way. You know what beatings will result? Fear. Not fear as in reverence and out of respect. Trust me, there are no respect involved. It's just fear. Which usually results in hatred.

I don't know how my relationship with my dad will turn out if I hadn't met Jesus. It was because of Him that I learnt to forgive my dad. Hence, a healed relationship with him.

You know, there are kids, after they have grown up, would not acknowledge their parents, or want nothing to do with them, and other horrible relationship stories.. If I hadn't met Jesus, I really think I would be heading that way. Which is so terrible. We don't want that.

So parents, don't sow fear in your children's hearts. That's a totally wrong direction. Teach them to respect you, not fear you. I am no parent so I can't tell you how.. All I can say is, ask God for wisdom when being a parent. He knows best.

So yeah, I had thoughts of dying before even becoming an emo teenager. Just because I was so afraid of being scolded and beaten.

That's day 5 for you. Good night!

Day 04 - Your views on religion.

Have answered this before here and the answer pretty much remains the same.

Given the question, here's what I believe.

Basically all religions are aiming for one thing: Going to heaven after you die. The means to get there is what differentiates them.

I believe all human has sinned, and our bestest effort still wouldn't cut it, since heaven is a 100% holy place, where God dwells. So, even a speck of sin wouldn't cut it.

That's why, we need other means to get to heaven, since our efforts will never be enough. And that is through the only Human who has never sinned, which is God Himself in flesh, Jesus.

Since He who is sinless was punished for all our sins, therefore we receive His righteousness.

"For God made Christ, who never sinned, to be the offering for our sin, so that we could be made right with God through Christ." - 2 Corinthians 5:21

This is the only way that made sense for me. That there's an exchange, my sin upon Him and His righteousness upon me. And the coolest part is, when He died, carrying all my sins, it didn't just end there. He actually defeated death, which is the wage of sin, and rose again! So all in all, He won, and I am found in Him :D

And the salvation package comes with a lot of bonuses. Not only that we get to go to heaven when we die, but here right now on earth, we get to receive all His blessings and promises! We are able to feel His presence here on earth, we are able to receive His favor, and the list of His goodness goes on.

What a good God!

Again, this is what I believe and experience, and am not forcing anyone to believe what I do.

So, TTYL! :D

Day 03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Well I don't do them both.

The last time I really drank alcohol was during the Chinese New Year. And guess what, I'm actually a pretty good drinker! I think. I drank 4 glasses that day. With my family. Yeah.

I watched Skins recently and they treat drugs very casually. Like it's no big deal. It doesn't show the addictiveness it's said to cause. But I still remember all those seminars we had during primary school. Brought addicts to share their testimony and showed gory pictures.

I believe both aren't good for you. But I think drugs are worse?

Drink if you're celebrating! Just don't get wasted and embarrass yourself and lose your virginity or something. And not too often. It ruins your liver.

And don't do drugs.

the first cent.

LOL! I checked my google adsense account and earned my first ever CENT. Yep, ONE CENT.

So whoever clicked the ads in my blog, THANK YOU! :D

Really, this is sincere. Thanks!

And good night! :)

Day 02 - Where you'd like to be in 10 years.

In 10 years I'd be 31. Hmm..

I don't really like picturing myself that old. So I never wanted to think of it.

...

I literally paused for a few seconds thinking of this. Hmm.

Okay. In my head, me in 10 years:


I'll already be married.

I'm an active woman, travelling the world.

I will still be friends with my close friends.

Career path.. Can't picture anything clear. But I have my own business. A boss with downlines.

Am famous. For something good.

Am even happier than how I am now.

Am closer to God than how I am now.

Yep, that's it!

Day 01 - Your current relationship. If single, discuss how single life is.

I am single.

I would say I am enjoying the single life!

To illustrate clearly, I divide my single period into 2:

Single BC: aged 0-16
Single AD: aged 17-now

What are the difference? Well..

1. In between there was a relationship
2. AD: I've received Jesus, BC: I haven't. I received Jesus in my relationship period.

Single BC was NOT FUN. I was standing on an unstable ground. I was trying to find self-worth in having lots of friends, being popular, being likable, and having a boyfriend. I really thought when I have a boyfriend to care for me and 'love', life would feel more complete.

We all know that is wrong.

So I had a boyfriend. He is (present tense) a very nice guy. Funny and easy to get along with. The first few months was rainbows and sunshines. But then, the emptiness I felt before slowly crawled back in.

There's nothing wrong with him. The problem is, I still am standing on shaky grounds. My boyfriend is an imperfect human being, thus he can't complete me. And I can't base my self worth on something as shaky as an imperfect human being. And Jesus was not involved in the relationship. That's two MAJOR problems.

Now, I've been single for 4 years, and I have known Jesus for 4 years too. My self worth and identity is based on how much God loves and desires me, shown and proven by the cross. And that's the ONLY stable ground around.

And with Jesus being the center, He gave me good friends, in church and in school, He repaired broken relationships with my family, and He gave me a life where "everything works together for my good (Rm 28:8)" to enjoy! So, life is really good!

Do I want to date? Yes I do! But I'm not desperate like I was before. I trust Him and His timing, and waiting for the right worthy guy.

I have a long (up to the hundreds) list of criteria of my dream boyfriend, but to sum it up:

1. Is in a serious relationship. With Christ.
2. Taller.
3. Older.
4. Has chemistry.
5. Is ONLY after me. Guys, browse around all you like, make friends all you want. But when you have set your target, go for her only. I don't really like guys who goes after a lot of girls, then chooses one. Might work for other girls, but not me. Personal opinion.
6. Not too fashionable. Just dresses normally and neatly.
7. Not a graphic designer or illustrator.
8. Physically not boring. And NO PIERCING. Tattoos are fine.

Number 5-8 are the less important ones. But 1-4 is a must.

And as you can see, I am a pretty traditional girl. Waiting to be found rather than actively searching around. Does not like pierced guys. Yeah.

So there you go. Day 1!! TTYL!

30 Days Challenge

A night with SEKIA. (WITH VIDEOS!!)

We had an Independence Day celebration yesterday at YRC. Here are some photos.

While having dinner after the event. Provided by the committee! Thanks committee!

Our latest couple. And something on the right :p

Poriman is soooo pretty!

Mat's hat. TWO DOLLARS at Daiso!! Must. Buy.

OOTD. Dress code: Red / white / batik.

Our attempt of taking a group photo. Not all Sekia members are here though.
CP has the complete one with Ce Joan and Ria and all.

When suddenly Fena started laughing for no apparent reasons.

And I told Yohanes (who's snappoing the photos) to keep snapping.

When finally ko Nathan shushed her.

Finally! A moment of peace.

Unglam pose of Ko Nathan

Finally! A proper pic.

Fian. No change of expression since the beginning of time.

Was thinking, should've taken Matthew's place. All the females were sitting down!

Me, Cindy, Yenny (calm and composed throughout), Fena (again with the face), Matthew, Fian, Ko Nathan.

DONE!

Troll.

She wants a pic of herself alone.

"Go away pls."

Jjang!!

Photo session over.

I want dat eyelid.

Resuming the photo session. This is Lia on the left. These 2 girls are the LOUDEST of Sekia. 

And that's Yenny. She's warm and friendly.

Ria the boss. She was the leader of the committee of this whole event. Great job girl!

This is Cindy. Met her for the first time yesterday!

Fian. U promoting?

After the event ceased, some of us went down first, because the committee is still having their meeting. And no waiting time was wasted by Fena.

"Please take using my Samsung S3 as well"

Doesn't like the hand position. Retake.

Hottest item that day: Matthew's hat?

After the committee finished their meeting and went down as well. Took a pic of one of my fave couple!

B & J!

We decided to go to Cineleisure to play Kinect at E2Max, and I wanted to check the flea market. And while in the bus, again, no time was wasted. We laughed so loud that other passengers actually shushed us!

Blur guy.

Gets even more blur.

One blinked and the other got covered by the pole.

Note: Matthew's face.

This girl literally takes photos everywhere, using anything around as props. Talent.

Then, the walk to Cineleisure.

CP and Mat. Should've taken more effort to take a pic of Mat. I love how he dressed yesterday!

I like this pic! Some random guy on the right.

We split up, me and CP went to the flea, while the others went to E2Max, a gaming place in cathay where you have lots of stuff, computers to board games to Kinect..

CP bought herself a pair of shoes, a red and black heels which I personally think is very nice. And the prices at the flea is pretty expensive, like $15 plus!! I expected to find things like around 5 bucks or 10 maximum. Disappointed.

So, when we caught up with them at E2 Max, here's the scene when we entered our room.

"Lets Dance!" *Suju's Sorry2 melody.

They say a picture is worth a thousand words. And a video is worth a thousand pictures?

There is a very unglam scene of me tidying my shorts in the end. T_T

Somewhere in the middle you'll see Ko Natan starts "freestyling".

In pairs.

Note Ko Nathan's passion. 

From the four, you can see who are the contant members: KO NATHAN AND FENA.

Giras~

Anyway, I had a lot of fun yesterday!!!! It's been so long since we've gone out to play after YRC.. We used to go to the arcade at Scape, but they closed down and turned it into a place to play Pool :(

Would be fun to see Ce Joan and Ghon playing teehee!

I love this family God has given me. And I can see with my eyes how it's growing.. Jesus is amazing! I hope all the new members would feel at home in this family :)

So TTYL! Have a blessed week!

And SELAMAT HARI RAYA for all my muslim friends! Mohon maaf lahir dan batin to all!!!

17 Aug // Birthday // Dream.

Another Friday!

Another week has passed! This is so quick man.

AND HAPPY NATIONAL DAY TO MY BELOVED INDONESIA!!

BE A BETTER COUNTRY WITH NO CORRUPTION OKAY??

Went to school earlier than usual today. I guess it's because I slept earlier as well yesterday night, at around 11 o'clock.

So I reached at around 9.10? Which was an accomplishment, really.

And guess what. Our lecturer came at 11. Best. And he came while I was having lunch. Away from school. He's a different lecturer from the one I mentioned in my last post.

Anyway, had a consultation with him. I guess he was okay with my project. He praised me for my "very good research".

He's the kind of lecturer you can't guess what's going through his mind. He looks like he's always bored of whatever I've got to say. And I really can't deal with that kind of people. It makes me so cautious. I need to loosen up? I mean, I can be quite crazy (but in a nerdy weird way I guess. Cos I don't drink or smoke or party) yet depends on the situation, I can be so stiff. This is the kind of situation where I'm so stiff. Talking to someone who is unpredictable.

So, when words of compliment actually came out from his mouth, I was a bit shocked. And happy. PTL!! Cos God knows I only do my research at school. 99% of them.

There are a lot of people whose brighter than me in class. And more diligent. And more passionate. Yet, I love what CP (one of our FA member) said. She studies design as well.

"I feel that I'm an ordinary designer. But I feel that God is going to do amazing things." Too many 'feel's for a sentence, but that's what she said as far as I can remember.

And it's true. I learnt so much from her. And this sentence has kept me strong. We are ordinary people, with an extraordinary God!

Zee and me in class! Happy ah.

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Last night, I had a dream. I dreamt that my mom made a surprise 21st birthday party for me.

You know, turning 21 is a big deal. And I actually had to go to a meeting, ON MY 21st BIRTHDAY. So much for a birthday celebration. But still, Ghon dkk gave me a surprise just right before the meeting. Short and meaningful.

Because, as she told me afterwards, she planned to celebrate my Birthday during FA. And they've agreed, no FA that day, and just the celebration of my birthday. But I had to come to the meeting, so I've been telling her that I can't come to FA. But I guess she still had her hopes up until the day itself. And when it really turned out that I can't attend FA that day, all the plans was basically destroyed.

And that day, I remembered I needed to go to the Revenue House to make a Singpass or something, which was at Novena. And I had forgotten to charge my Blackberry, so battery was running low. To conserve battery, I turned my BB off, and turned it on once in a while just to check whether there are any messages.

So from the Revenue House, I went to Novena Square, which was really near. And from there, there was a direct bus to the meeting venue. In the toilet, I turned my BB on to check, and suddenly a call just happened to come in, from an unknown number. It was Ghon, and for the last time she confirmed that I can't come. So she asked me to go home straight away after meeting. (I guess the 'surprise' was supposed to be shifted to my house after my meeting.) I said OK. Then she asked me where I was, and I told her I was at Novena Square.

And she suddenly turned so excited! She said she just happens to be there too. She asked me to meet up at Burger King. I said OK. I was actually happy to meet her! At least I get to see someone dear to my heart during my birthday.

So I waited at BK. And I saw a bunch of my FA people coming with a little cake and candle from afar. I guess they planned to sneak in behind me and I just turned to face them at the wrong timing. So it was funnily awkward, waiting for them to come closer.

So when they reached, they sang happy birthday, and Ghon prayed for me, and I ate the cake. We talked for a while, and when 6 o clock came, I had to go for the meeting :( So there goes my birthday. May 9, 2012.

It was simple, but very meaningful. And I believe nothing just happens. Ghon didn't just happened to call at the right moment when I turned my BB on, which would only last like 10 seconds, and I'd turn it off again to conserve battery. And they didn't just happen to be in the same location as I was. It's all planned by Jesus, the God of all happenings. I miss Ghon a lot. Come back soon!

And in Indonesia, I only celebrated birthday with my big family 2 weeks after my real birthday. And no photos was taken that day. It felt like a normal lunch, really. And I didn't get to celebrate with my Surabaya friends. Because it was way too late anyway. I reached Surabaya at May 14. Which was a WEEK after my birthday, and I myself has lost the birthday hype.

Oh but on 15, we went to Platinum Grill, this very fancy fine dining restaurant to celebrate, just the 5 of us. It really was a nice dinner! But I still didn't feel like it was a birthday celebration. Maybe because I got no presents. I love presents!! Prefer them to Ang Baos. And yes, I still love the feeling of opening the wrapping paper, the excitement of wondering what's inside.. Btw Ce Joan gave me one!! Thanks Ce!!

They actually took a photo for us, framed it, and sent it to our house. Thanks Platinum Grill!

Me and 2 waitresses. Yes.
And a teddy on my plate.

So if anyone in Surabaya is looking for a romantic place to dine with, this is definitely the place.

And I didn't take any photos, even with my handphone. Just to immersed in the experience that I forgotten to take any pics. Well, took a very unflattering photo of my salad. But that's it.

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So, back to my dream.
I don't know why, since my birthday was 3 months ago, but I had a dream of my 21st birthday. In my dream, my mom planned it for me. All planned and set, like when I was a kid. All set and done and I just needed to be there pretty.

In my dream, I dressed myself very beautifully. Yes, I thought I was pretty in MY OWN dream. Can right. And the whole family rode this veeeerrryyyy luxurious car. Like a black Rolls Royce or something.

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By the way, please imagine this in a movie-scene way. It was like that in my dream. So dramatic.

So, through the car window I saw this huge palace-like building. It was like a small palace. But it was still huge! And grand and beautifuuulllll!!!!! With spotlights shining from below, it was sooo pretty! I opened the car window and looked at it. Winds blowing my hair, imagine. It looked something like this.

horizonsunlimited.com

Then we went into the gates of the palace, and there was this row of palm trees with spotlights.. Preetayyy...

cutewallpapers.net

It wasn't in a straight line like this. It's rather in a curve, and the tone of the dream was blueish, not orange like this.

Anyway, we came down from the car, and I remembered I was so happy. I don't know if it's only because I was feeling pretty and celebrating my birthday party, or there was something else. Maybe I was attached. Maybe there's someone I liked. But even if it was true, I didn't see him in the dream.

I remembered walking through the hallway with my mom, and I was hiding from something. I can't remember. Maybe I was shy from seeing that guy. In my dream, my mom invited a lot of people

Then through the crowd I saw Cia2!

My mom invited her too and she came all the way from Australia!!! Immediately I ran to her and we were screaming and squealing like little girls. It's been so long since I last saw her!!!! I miss her a lot! In the dream and this very moment too.

In my dream, she had long straight hair, and she was wearing a white long dress. And we planned to have a sleepover. It was so fun!!! It was such a happy dream, I felt super happy! No school, no nothing. Just bloated happy.

Then I woke up.

I was a bit bummed that it was only a dream.

I told my mom about the dream, and she said that that will happen during my wedding. Hahaha can't imagine that. If it really happened just like in my dream, it would be so cool, wouldn't it?

Btw Bryan just celebrated his THIRTEENTH birthday. He's a teenage now!! Time flies. So here is him NOW. WIth his mustache and all.

..and here is him THEN.

Isn't he just the CUTEST thing ever??????? Look at those huge eyes and biteable cheeks!!! And the plump lips!!!! Ahh if only he could stay like that forever.

Big sister loves you and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Btw does anyone knows where to find FIFA 13 for XBOX? I'm not sure if the name is even correct, but it's the latest FIFA game for XBOX. Please let me know k? He wants it. And he used to want toy guns :| He's grown up.

So TTYL! Byee!