When it breaks.

I'm gonna try to define what heartbreak is like for you.

It's that moment when you decide that you trust someone enough to give a piece of your heart to.

It's when you open the gates a bit, lower the bridge for a while, let the guards down for a little, so that they can squeeze in and find themselves in that space you've created for them. If they behave well, you might just give them a stool to sit on. Or maybe a comfy couch. With some wi-fi near by. It depends.

It's when you decide that you're gonna be vulnerable enough, granting them a certain permission to affect you, lending them a pen to write on your book, trusting them with a piece of yourself.

Heartbreak.
Is when that piece breaks.

Sure, there are a few who would intentionally do it.

But there are also some well meaning humans who would just unintentionally mistreat your piece, simply because they're humans.

It might be too rough for their comfort. 

It might be too high maintenance for their liking. 

It might be too frail. 

Or, it might simply slip off their hands and shatters.

I guess we can't escape it.

The ideal situation is after we give our hearts to Jesus, they are kept in a high security glass box. No interaction. No one inside. No access. Safe.

But apparently God puts us here, with 6 billion others, where friction is unavoidable, and a few fractures here and there are simply expected.

The only difference is that He's got us covered in the case the unfortunate happens. It's like an ultimate insurance.

If your heart is broken, you’ll find GOD right there; if you’re kicked in the gut, he’ll help you catch your breath. - Psalm 34:18 MSG

So in the unlikely event where your heart breaks, He gives you the ultimate remedy:

Himself.

He whose commands calmed the storms. 

He who walks on raging waters. 

He whose touch cleansed the lepers. 

He whose smile draws kids nearby. 

He whose words brought the dead back to life.

He whose love for you nailed Him to the cross.

If your heart is broken, you'll find THIS kind of God, waiting there.

And truthfully, who else would you rather find? Your heart is in good hands now :)

Mine is too.

So good night peeps. Good night!

Of God

You know, there are things which you know are just "of God".

When you want something so bad and everything looks promising, and yet it somehow didn't happen. It's "of God".

Or. When you just want to throw it all away, yet somehow it comes back running and you're glad it did. It's "of God". 

I've experienced one. Will the other one follow along?

Ramdon.

Do you ever feel tired after crying?

It's weird right. It's theoretically just a few drops of body fluid falling of your eyeballs. Yet, it seems to drain all your energy. Your heart beats faster, your breath becomes shorter, your facial muscles shrinks and swells up afterwards, it's like exercise! 

Well, the thought just suddenly popped in my head. I should google this afterwards. We continue learning after school right.

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I came to realize that sunlight does good stuff to your mind. What seemed to be so severe the night before doesn't seem to be a big deal at all in the morning. Which goes to show that I really need to sleep now. Get the night over and done with and just be in the light sooner.

Am I having a frikkin PMS?

Good night.

New blog!!

Helllllo Readers!

It's been over lifetimes since I've last written here. That's what working does to you I guess. It used to take me hours to write a substantial post, and I don't have that kind of time while working.

So I'm kinda here to kinda announce that I kinda have a new blog! Lol

It's here at brimlyke.tumblr.com so go ahead and check it out! :D

Looks something like this :D

Blogger will still be up. Stuffs here will be a lot more personal.

Tumblr will be more focused on my illustrations. Each post will be accompanied by an illustration, whether it's related to what's written or not :D

Why Tumblr? Simply cos the layout is better. Blogger's design sucks #sorrynotsorry.

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I'm currently taking a 3 weeks break in Surabaya.

Seeing my 2 little siblings brings me more joy than anything else. They grow up too fast. I grow up too fast.

I've been soaking myself in all the chillies I can find.

See this goodness? SEE IT? 

Life is good and slow here. There's Bryan and his oblivion towards the universe, Aiko and all her drama, my mom with all her grown up drama, and dad with his constant unsatisfied nagging.

But this is home as I know it. And I'm in it :)