Typo and Ce Listi

SCHOOL.

Brand & Brand Identity: went great! Logo was there, needed a little improvement but it was ok :)

Typo: A  d i s a s t e r. I really hope I can survive next week! amen amen amen.

Idk, this 2 weeks I had no mood to do schoolwork at all. I feel like doing what I want, which is drawing ko Steven’s illustration project. And the result of this no mood is the Winnie Tan disaster T_T (In case you don’t know, Winnie is my Typo lecturer) I can do well in David’s (BBI lecturer), really is only by God’s grace.. Seriousss….

Tomorrow is Joseph’s packaging.. Still no mood T_T what to do sia.. Instead of making a mock up or sketches or anything, here I am pouring my heart out. I think I’ll draw some construction sketches later.. of the packaging.. and do the mock up tomorrow during the 2,5 hours break..

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YESTERDAY

me and my cellgroup went to Marche 313 to have a farewell dinner for Ce Listhiya. She’s for-gooding back to Indonesia.. :/

I’ll try to locate Ce Listhiya for you.. You see the guy in red on the right side? Left-down side of him is a girl.. And to the lift of the girl is Ce Listhiya.. My wishes for you, ce:

• God’s abundant blessings and divine protection forever!


• Blessed financially (she’s starting a new business.. so exciting!!)


• So that you never stop growing to be more sensitive towards God’s voice


• Moves by the wisdom of God and not yourself


• A closer relationship with the Holy Spirit


• Find a superfine son of God as your cowok XD (look closely at the picture ce.. noone up to your standard? lol!!)


• Healthy always!


• I hope one day in the future we get to get together again as an FA :)

FA is the abbreviation for ‘Family Altar’ aka cellgroup. This is our FA and we are named FA ANDA led my Ce Shella and Ce Manda (Ce shella: bottom right of Ce Listi, Ce Manda: 6th fine lady from the left) I love these people so better not mess with them ah or I’ll sucker punch you! >:D (ok joking only la hahaha)

OK its midnight.. I better go to bed! Tmr we NAFA students have a talk from donno what speaker I forgot.. But he’s kinda awesome so we’ll see!

Niteee

day 11 - your biggest fear

david koh. lol! :P

online ranting

rant |rant|

verb [ intrans. ]

speak or shout at length in a wild, impassioned way

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In this whole post, rant = ranting my negative thoughts

I have been ranting online since I know it’s doable. It gets worse after I get to Singapore. I rant about schoolworks or the weather or being tired.. But the worst is when I rant about other people..

I have been doing it.. And there’s this particular person that I often rant about (verbally and online) until this one person got so famous.. (S43 ppl especially should know.. hahaha)

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(I know it’s not that bad but I don’t want to show off rants that are worse >.>)

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Ranting online gives a certain relieve.. It’s like, I’m not ranting to a particular person so there’s no awkwardness and I’m not wasting anyone’s time, but at the same time it felt like I have shared it to the whole world (and somehow telling the world that you are miserable made me feel kinda cool?) However, it doesn’t last long, that feeling.

Until one day I was ranting about my *cough* dad, it went kinda bad I think until my leader Ko Petrus had to stop me on twitter. That moment I realize that ranting online is actually stupid.

Broadcasting to the world how I’m bothered by someone, how I can’t handle the situation, how things aren’t going my way, how this how that why this why that, when we are called to be light to the world and salt to the earth.. Unwise.

I then usually feel bad (although mostly I don’t mention people’s names when I rant about them), or guilty, or disappointed at myself (I shouldn’t have posted it that way.. Or maybe shouldn’t have posted at all), I usually regret it.

Mostly it’s just emotions and after I cooled down, I realize the situation wasn’t that bad at all. If the rant was pretty bad I would delete it. However, someone must have read it *confident*, and that’s one person exposed to my unpleasant tweet.

The image you create of yourself when you rant, I can say, probably wouldn’t be too good. Once in a while ok la since we’re human.. But if it keeps going on everyday, people might see you as a complainer (and it’s actually tiring to hear people complain all the time. Reminds us of the Israelites in the bible, not?) If you’re the type of person tho actually doesn’t care about what people thinks of you then good for you! haha I’m not though.

And when you badmouth people (clarification. badmouth=posting your negative thoughts of others), especially when you don’t mention any names, might seem safer, but it’s not. Here’s why. Say if I read your tweet, I would’t know if it’s for me or not, and it’s creepier since it might just be me and you’re acting all nice in front of me. Those kind of stuff.

I’m not saying you can’t express yourself. Just make sure when you do it, your mind is clear and you’re not under the influence of any negative emotions cos usually it does more harm than good, and just leads to regret. Lesson learnt from personal experiences.

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In your anger do not sin; when you are on your beds, search your hearts and be silent.

Matthew 4:4 (NIV)

Yes we can be angry, but dont let it control us. Calm yourself down first, don’t sin. Lesson learnt from Sally.

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A drawing of her made in 09. Lol!

So yeah.. Something happened just now and I was sooooooo tempted to rant but then all this came to me..

Oh, and meditating myself to calm down usually doesn’t work (*breathe in* calm down, Kim… calm down *breate out*) Focusing on Jesus and realizing He’s inside me works better. (Learnt in FA)

Ok fin! and God bless!

day 10 - a picture of your favorite relative

mmmmm…

idk if they are considered relative though since in the movies, relatives are family members so far away you visit once in a while.. but according to the dictionary 

noun

1 a person connected by blood or marriage

so should be ok lah ya. hahaha

day 9 - your favorite blog

Xiaxue!! <— click to access her blog

Image taken from her blog :)

She’s an awesome blogger. She’s strong (considering all the haters out there), brave, and what I love most: honest. She’s not fake.

Sure she does plastic surgery and Photoshopped her photos, but so what? I think what’s inside the book matters more than the cover? And she’s making the cover even more attractive! hahaha

She doesn’t act cute. You’ll see when you watch her videos. She’s ‘apa adanya’ (that’s Indonesian. the english translation would be.. down to earth? I don’t know), proven by her perfectly spoken and written SINGLISH. She’s a Singaporean and not using a fake American accent. I LOVE that fact! :D It’s a different story if you grow in the west and have a natural American accent like DaheeYum or Michelle Phan

Reading her blog makes me love Singlish!! hahaha (I used to hate it :P sorry ppl)

The only thing that makes me uncomfortable is her use of vulgarities.. :/

Well its ok to have opinions righhttt? But I still love her! She’s so funny and SMART. At first glance, might not look so, but read her blog and you will see :) She can do photoshop too!! The image above is photoshopped hahhaa!

Here’s the comparison

I should learn from her how to write blogs so it’s not so boring for you guys to read. lol!

day 8b - ten things you’d like to say to ten different people, without using names #2

Pretty sleepy now. I slept for only like 6 hours last night finishing the pic i was working on hahaha. Supposed to be doing day 9 but fulfilling a request from Shantiya Papaya lol :P oh btw yaya there was a 2I in the original post hahaha i forgot.

so this is the classmate version of day 8! anyway this is just for fun k, don’t take it seriously.

classmate #1: dude get back to school! (i think this one is obvious) hahaha

classmate #2: you are getting more charming by the day.

classmate #3: *wait.. opening a class pic..* you’re a nice person and i enjoy having you in class, and i have a certain respect for you. I like how you’re not picky.

classmate #4: you are a rare being, i love how you are not picky too. it’s really really a special quality :)

classmate #5: I think you are a bit lost (in a funny way) but you are kind.

*thinking about eating this very moment*

classmate #6: you are pretty and cute and cheerful, do you even realize that?

*I WANT AGAR AGAR*

classmate #7: I want your legs hahhaa.

classmate #8: You are probably the only one I can talk to about TV shows and songs and movies and games and in fact i really enjoy talking to you :)

classmate #9: I admire your honesty :) its cool.

classmate #10: you’re not as scary as i thought hahaha!

ok fin! :)

the most complete 2i class pic i have

..with daniel..

..and zam! to those who are not pictured i’m sorry but i dont have any stock of photos including you :/

ok fin!

to prove that i am a girl. i like.... (part 1)

GOD i have experiences in my life that makes it impossible to not love Jesus. I’ll share some someday. I’ve heard a few friends saying that I’m religious. When people say ‘religious’..

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a nun (:D) comes to mind, literally. I mean, I still go to the movies, I shop, I watch Glee etc.. It’s basically so simple. I like Jesus, I love Him, and enjoying my days growing in Him. (Almost like when you have a bf or gf) I don’t want to do stuff what would hurt Him (i know sometimes I do fail, but that’s the thing about Him. He has grace and mercy and forgiveness :D) so yup yup yup!

FOOD oh, who doesn’t? I love eating, I do.

It’s just that my metabolism is not as fast as a infant anymore and I need to control what I eat. And I don’t exercise regularly too.. I jog once in a while though.. I like everything from Indomie <3 to steaks to burgers to salads to ice creams to chips to brownies to bubble teas to everything!!!

BOYS Who doesn’t like talking about them? I bet majority of the girls do. I talk about boys to my mom, she knows all my love stories. Me and my friends talk about them. (This boy is very tall. That boy is short but has a certain charm. This guy is so kind. etc) I fall in and out of crush (not love ah. like i said my my posts before, love is a serious word.) My principal about relationships is “second and forever”. It’s supposed to be “first and forever” (sekali untuk selamanya) but since I had a bf before (before I repented and started to take relationships seriously), so mine would be second. Soo… still waiting! I bet I’ll have my next relationship at 21. We’ll see if this comes true.

day 8 - ten things you’d like to say to ten different people, without using names

ok this one is interesting :D

people #1: i want to learn a lot from you. if only we are both not so busy and can have private classes or something.

people #2: i want to learn a lot from you too. if i can be your team and join you everywhere you go or something, would be an honor >u<

people #3: i like your voice superlot :) its beeeautiful

people #4: when will i finally meet you?

people #5: just admit it. you want it.

people #6: i dont know how you do it but you are scaryingly accepting towards people. even i need time to adjust, while you are sooo friendly and etc. thats a very special quality :) you inspire me.

people #7: you laugh a lot at what people say (which makes them feel comfortable) and you have this very pleasant presence. i like it a lot when you’re around and you make me feel somehow safe :)

people #8: you really need to learn how to treat us well.

people #9: i wish i can pay for your trip anywhere you want to go, buy you the finest clothes, treat you in the best restaurants around, and just make you happy. and i will! just wait ya!

people #10: pleeease please please give me a spot! hahaha

ok any guess who’s who? lol

day 7- talk about your idol and how they influence you

the questions are seriously getting boring.

someone i look up to and respect so much would be my pastor Philip Mantofa. (not TOP lol)

website: www.philipmantofa.com

short autobiography:

was a frail kid. wore iron shoes when he was an infant coz legs were weak. sexually harassed by his teacher when he was younger. (is this too vulgar? btw you can find all this info in his book ‘Before 30’). knew Jesus since his youth, but has never really had a real relationship with Him. Like how I know Obama is the president of America.

Bitterness and disappointment led him to occultism. He would experience trances, and by the day it gets more out of control. when he was angry, he would lose his conscious thoughts and when he regained it back, he would see 5-10 people collapsed around him, beaten (when he lost consciousness, evil spirits would enter his body and does the attacking). He would hear terrifying voices. 3 times he planned to commit suicide, 3 times God made them fail. (this was only a puny part of his actual experience, i took a bit from his book)

2 weeks after the last suicide attempt, he went to church. There was an altar call, and he planned to leave. and when he was reaching for the door, he heard an audible voice (not something you hear in your heart, this is something you hear with your physical ears) “Philip! If you are not saved today, you will be lost forever!”. It was God’s voice.

He ran to the front (inside the church, not outside), cried like a small child. Not long after, he saw a very bright light, nothing else, not even a sound (there were people singing at that time). Suddenly behind that light he heard a voice, a very clear audible voice, speaking in english.

“I am Jesus and I love you!”

he cried

“Why?” The Lord didnt answer. “Lord! Let me die for You! I am not worthy!”

“No! But live for me!”

Afterwards, in the period of 40 days, The Lord freed him from the evil spirits bounding him.

Now, he is my beloved pastor. Has bought hundreds of thousands of soul to Christ, and has a huge role in my journey of repentance. I admire his relationship with God. It is so romantic! and not to mention he is tall (over 180 i think.. 185? 190?) and handsome hahahahaa. I also admire his love story with his wife, ce Irene. Such a devoted husband, he liked her at first sight (she was 14, he was a bit older)! and has been loyal to her ever since. its like she is the only woman in his life (besides his mom of course).

However, I know he’s still a human being with flaws. As much as I admire him, i dont worship him. Furthermore all those entertainers who I may seem to like so much. i just like them.

I dont let people i admire determine who i am. learn from them, learn from their mistakes, and thats all.

morning people

honestly speaking i’ve never seen any pastor this chio :D

midnight cravings

i’ve had problems with this since i moved to singapore in 2009. i would be doing homework till late midnight and suddenly get hungry, and would go out to the kitchen or dining room and grab something. the scariest thing is that it became somehow a habit and that’s the last thing you want. midnight cravings everynight.

I didnt see the harm before since no metter how much i eat, i usually stay at 55-56 kilos back in indonesia (boy i miss my 51 kg feel. that was in sec 1) so i kept snacking and snacking (CHIPS, white bread+kaya, pineapple tart, the floss snack thingy, cookies crisp, INDOMIE cooked and uncooked (i know its unhealthy. people, dont eat indomie this way), cup noodles, et cetera) until eventually, when i got up to that scale..

the arrow kept going..

to..

59.

That’s the heaviest i’ve ever been in my life and i feel fatter then ever.

I didnt mean to be ungrateful since i do know there are people out there that would do anything to be 59. it’s just that i not only feel fat, i felt kinda unhealthy too. and guilty T_T. It’s not that I actually felt fat and unhealthy physically, i didnt feel anything before i knew i was 59. it’s like, you feel kinda smart at school, and when you got one F, you suddenly feel stupid. Its more of a psychological thing i guess. knowing i was 59 made me feel unhealthy. and fat. and guilty (yeah i’m repeating myself).

When I got back to Indonesia for holidays, mom was so surprised of how much i got fatter (i personally didnt think there was any difference between the 55kg me and the 59. maybe because i look at the mirror everyday? but my mom saw the difference after 6 months not seeing me.) T_T

my biggest fear that time (was around year 1 sem 2) was growing to over 60. my weight has never started with a 6 ever.

Sooo… yeah. i am not 59 anymore btw (thank GOD!). not even 55 (another thank GOD!! :D)

still battling midnight cravings though hahahaha

day 6 - your all time favorite movie

asked this question, nothing came to mind.

lemme think.

to make it easier, let me state the (famous) ones that are not:

• Harry Potter 1-7a


• LOTR 1-3 (never even watched it but stated here since its famous)


• Pirates of the Caribbean 1-3


• SAW 1-forever


• all horror and thriller movies ever created.


• Alice in wonderland

oh that helped! something finally came to mind and it’s Tangled! :D

I love love romantic movies but nothing beats this one! Tangled Tangled Tangled! <3 xxxxx :D

day 5 - discuss your feelings on the word “love” and the way it’s used in today

i don’t take “love” as a light word, i take it very seriously. when i say “i love you”, i mean it. And when people say that word to me i hope they really mean it too. And i think a lot of people these days take it pretty lightly. you see secondary kids saying i love yous to their partners and all.. yeah it may be cute but.. u know :/

but basically,

love..

is..

1 John 4:8

:)