Do you know this feeling?

When you started becoming friends with someone through digital messages online, always talking to them through digital messages online, that you don't know how to actually talk to them when you meet them face to face?

Yeah.

UK Haul [Video], Part 1

So I shopped a lot while I was in The UK. I wanted to blog a post about all the stuff I bought, but the thought of having to take pictures of all of them, and typing to explain each of them.. I cowardly backed off..

.. and thought I might just do a video of it! :D Since talking is less time consuming than typing..

It takes a lot of courage, it's like putting your self out there.. And it's awkward sitting alone in your room, talking to a camera.. And having your aunt and cousin walking around while I was filming myself in the balcony.. (you'll get it once you watch the vid)

I tried to make it as short and snappy as possible, but still ended up with a 10 minute video. And this is part 1 out of like, 4 or 5..

I hope you don't get bored, and are able to hear what I'm saying.. Cos I feel I kinda mumble a little when I speak.. Maybe my two front teeth are too big..

Anyway, here it is! Enjoy!!

It's kinda small here, so here's a link if you want to watch it at a more comfortable Youtube default size.

Anyway, thanks for dropping by! Have a good day!

A new favorite song.

YOUR PRESENCE IS HEAVEN - Israel Houghton

Watch the lyrics.. It's b e a u t i f u l.

Who is like You Lord in all the earth?
Matchless love and beauty, endless worth
Nothing in this world can satisfy
'Cause Jesus You're the cup that won't run dry

Your presence is heaven to me
Your presence is heaven to me

Treasure of my heart and of my soul
In my weakness you are merciful
Redeemer of my past and present wrongs
Holder of my future days to come

Your presence is heaven to me
Your presence is heaven to me
Heaven to me, God

Oh Jesus, Oh Jesus
Your presence is heaven to me
Oh Jesus, Oh Jesus
Your presence is heaven to me

All my days on earth I will await
The moment that I see You face to face
Nothing in this world can satisfy
'Cause Jesus You're the cup that won't run dry
'Cause Jesus You're the cup that won't run dry
You never run dry

Your presence is heaven to me
Your presence is heaven to me
Lord your presence is heaven to me
Your presence is heaven to me

Oh Jesus, Oh Jesus
Your presence is heaven to me
Oh Jesus, Oh Jesus
Your presence is heaven to me

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I'm in my holiday period now. Taking my time off after a hectic semester..

TLG Christmas is coming up and I'm happy to serve as the committee: Decor and design! I'm not trying to sound religious here. I really do enjoy the part I'm doing and the people I work with are fantastic. It's just such a delight!

Ce Joan's wedding is coming up as well, and I'm helping her with the decor again. I guess this is what it feels to enjoy your work: it doesn't feel like working. It's really like spending my time doing my hobby. I really want to work this way man.

And my family is still here.. So I better get all of this done and over with and spend more time with them.

I still have my dissertation to work on as well. But it will have to wait. I don't want to do anything associated with school now. Like how Jihyo and Gary had a brief break, so will schoolwork and I.

Night!

Day 17 - Your highs and lows this past year

HELLO HUMAN RACE!!

I'm baaaack and freeee!!!!

It's been a crazy week working for my assessment, being sleep deprived and all, but it's all over now! Just waiting for the results, trusting God..

So I thought I'll continue the 30 days challenge!

I don't know what the question means, whether it's about me feeling high and low, or the actual situation around me. But i'll just get on with it anyway.

1. TRANSMISSION: Kaleidoscope
I would say this is a high and low. It's a high because I got to experience a lot of new stuff, got my work exhibited, got to know a lot of new people in the industry.. But at the same time, experiencing all that maybe too overwhelming for me.. It's like I've been in my school walls all along, not knowing what is out there. And once I found out how much bigger it actually is, honestly my confidence is crushed, which makes it a low. But it's not all bad, for I learn of humility and putting my trust and confidence in The Lord instead of myself!

2. Going to the UK
A definite high. One of my best experiences in life so far.


Honestly I can't think of anything else. I guess those two was the highlight of this year. I mean, I did turn 21, I graduated and got my diploma.. But they just don't stand out in my mind, it leaves no deep impression..

I can't think of anything bad as well.. And I'm grateful for that. I'd rather my mind not be filled with things I'd better off not remembering. I know it's human tendency to remember all the negative stuff rather than the positive, so me being unable to remember much of any negatives is a good thing. It's a God thing.

So praise The Lord and see you around!! :D

Towards Freedom.

I haven't been posting for quite some time now. Reason being I am super busy!!

Assessment is just around the corner. And just before we head back to Singapore, my lecturer in UK asked me to change my direction of the project. So I kinda have to redo my whole thing. Within less than a week.

I am free to not do it though, it was just a suggestion. But it's sad that I also didn't like my work at that point. So that day I canceled my planned trip to Birmingham that day, and sat at the library deciding what I would do.

So yeah. Since I got back to Singapore, I've been working non stop. First day (Wednesday), woke up at 1. I wouldn't call it a jetlag, cos it's normal for me to wake up at that time. Did my quote morning unquote routine, and had my quiet time. Within a few days, I must finish something worth of a few weeks work. I mean, I need a miracle.

At times like these, I naturally draw closer to God. I kept getting verses like Jeremiah 17:7-8,

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“But blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord,

    whose confidence is in him.

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They will be like a tree planted by the water

    that sends out its roots by the stream.

It does not fear when heat comes;

    its leaves are always green.

It has no worries in a year of drought

    and never fails to bear fruit.”

I know I need to sit on my table and start doing work, but in all that, my trust is in The Lord. I won't put my confidence in myself, or my skills and experience, but in the Lord. Asking Him for wisdom and strength, that whatever I do, whatever idea that comes to mind, is all from Him and He's in control. 

I remind myself of that everyday before doing my work.

So after my quiet time, I would either take a shower do get going with my work immediately, and bathe somewhere near evening. 

Lunch and dinner was my only break, and I would watch Running Man while eating.

I get easily distracted while working. I can't just do work. Although it's interesting, it's boring at the same time, if I make any sense. So I have a small space on my screen for youtube videos to play. Usually Clothes Encounters. I've watched all her videos, and rewatching them all over again. That's how much I like Jenn Im.

On Wednesday, I slept at 5 and woke up at 10, which was quite early. I planned to wake up at 8 but that was a fail. Still, only 5 hours of sleep. Second day goes the same: morning routine, quite time, work. Slept at 6 am with my eyes hurting. Stared at the screen for over 10 hours, maybe more.

I planned to wake up at 9 on Friday, and had this crazy nightmare where I woke up at 7 pm. I cried in my dream, and thanked God with all my might when I woke up. That was a bad bad dream, in this situation where time is really precious.

So in the end I woke up at 11, which makes it another 5 hours. BUT, slept again from 3 to 5. Couldn't help it man, was so sleepy. The fact that I can wake up early already is a celebratory event. PTL!

So, Thursday slept at 6 again. With a hurting eyes again. Friday woke up at 12. Again with the routine, and slept at 8.30 am the next morning. I frikkin watched the sun rise, which I HATE. I like sleeping when it's dark. I tried to sleep at 6 am as usual, but my eyes was hurting so bad I needed to put an ice pack on it, and the coldness of the ice pack prevented me from sleeping. So yeah, slept in broad daylight and woke up at 12+ today. Routine as usual, and now about to go to bed. Miraculously my eyes isn't hurting now. That's some good news, I've been staring at the screen for like, 15 hours?

Tomorrow will go to school and print and set up all that needs to be set up. Finally I can sleep tomorrow.

K BYE!!