Finally my roller coaster is stabilizing. It's on a steady roll across some ocean with the cold wind breezing. Numb all over because of the cold, but no sickening twists and turns, which is good for now. Enough of the life catapult.
So, to not be an annoying secretive writer, I shall let you in on a glimpse of what each Whoas were.
So yeah. 2015 has been full of surprises to begin with, so that's that. And one dawn:
Whoa I & II: Some significant being of the past decided to unexpectedly appear again. The situation was equivalent to, say, your college application was rejected and then a year later they came back contacting you. Something like that.
Whoa III: I lost my (sort of) Indonesian PR due to a very stupid mistake on my part. Don't ask. I'd rather not.
Whoa IV: There was a huge fight at home, leaving my little sister crying on the sofa and my stressed-looking brother looking worse, and leaving me crying out to God to just. do. something. tangible.
Whoa V: Someone disappointed me. Deeply. But it kind of was resolved the next day resulting in this steady numbing roll across the ocean.
So there you go. My eyes are super heavy and Imma sleep very soon. Night people!
Whoa V
My roller coaster just went up. Up. Up. through the clouds. And the air gets thinner. And thinner.
It's up there not because things are good, but because things are cold. My feet and fingers are numb, and breathing gets tough.
So tempted to just jump ship right now. Either I float into the atmosphere or I freefall back to earth, and in both scenarios I'll be with Jesus soon enough.
Sorry for the super emo tone. I hope I can blame this on PMS. I don't keep track, you see. So I can only hope.
Whoa IV
Again with the roller coaster. It just dove straight to the center if the earth where there's supposedly molten lava everywhere.
I'm holding tightly onto that safety harness for dear life, safety harness probably representing the Word of God.
What do you do when things get out of control? Either you end your life and leave this world and all the trouble (and happiness) that it comes with, or you carry on cos Jesus laid His life so you could have His.
The engineer of this roller coaster is sick. Get me back to the earth surface now.
Whoa II
Apparently there are moments in life where you are left speechless. Just speechless.
Life (or God decides to make it) takes you by surprise. Like a hook in a boxing match. Like the kidnapping of the victims in the Saw franchise. Like the rapture, probably. (NOT NOW PLEASE LORD. NOT UNTIL NEXT WEEK AT LEAST. Or after I get married but before having babies. That's the goldilocks zone. And I just used an astronomic term by the way, how cool is that! :D)
That moment in life where you just wonder, "what just happened?"
Obviously I'm in it now. And I'm running out of expressions, honestly. I'm just kind of dazed.
I just got off the phone with ko Hendra. We talked for over two hours I think, and yet still after getting all excited gossiping for that long, now I'm left in a daze again.
I should probably daze to sleep. Good night! :D
twentee fifteen so far.
It's been one month into 2015 and the year has presented itself very interesting. If there is one thing it is not, it's boring.
Analyzation:
Every January of the first 21 years of my life would most probably be spent in the nursery and in school, which I practically have no memory about.
Last January was spent working. Blah.
So this January was my first January as a self employed being, which grants life to express itself in its full swing. And it has. And I know all the credit goes to God.
People come and go like.. *thinking for an expression* ..as if my life is a public toilet. They are just stepping in and out. A bunch of people rushed in, and another bunch left. Not saying that you use public toilets in a group, but you get me.
Work comes in like.. *thinking again* ..poo. Sometimes it comes in small drips, yet at other times it was a diarrhoea of things to do.
Church started with a bang. I actually missed FA after like one month without it, which is a good feeling to have. I think we're supposed to feel that way about cellgroups. How rad is that! And our youth ministry just relaunched (read: rebranded) itself. EXCITING RIGHT.
I'm basically on a roller coaster. You never know when the next turn will be, or how steep the drop will be, or when you'll get flung upwards. And this is the kind of life I love! A lot of new revelations with God, which I should probably share right. Stay motivated, Kim.
It's okay. 2015 is awesomeness. Jesus owns it, how can it be otherwise? :)
Nights!
Analyzation:
Every January of the first 21 years of my life would most probably be spent in the nursery and in school, which I practically have no memory about.
Last January was spent working. Blah.
So this January was my first January as a self employed being, which grants life to express itself in its full swing. And it has. And I know all the credit goes to God.
People come and go like.. *thinking for an expression* ..as if my life is a public toilet. They are just stepping in and out. A bunch of people rushed in, and another bunch left. Not saying that you use public toilets in a group, but you get me.
Work comes in like.. *thinking again* ..poo. Sometimes it comes in small drips, yet at other times it was a diarrhoea of things to do.
Church started with a bang. I actually missed FA after like one month without it, which is a good feeling to have. I think we're supposed to feel that way about cellgroups. How rad is that! And our youth ministry just relaunched (read: rebranded) itself. EXCITING RIGHT.
I'm basically on a roller coaster. You never know when the next turn will be, or how steep the drop will be, or when you'll get flung upwards. And this is the kind of life I love! A lot of new revelations with God, which I should probably share right. Stay motivated, Kim.
It's okay. 2015 is awesomeness. Jesus owns it, how can it be otherwise? :)
Nights!
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