I dont know
and guess what the time was. 7:56. Just a few close minutes before the annoying alarm rang. I can see the humour in that. It's like God showed me He really can wake me up. And it's just at the very last minute, as if.. *how to explain ah..* As if He's showing His victory to win my faith over the alarm, waiting until the very last minute to add to the drama and klimax. So playful, that's my (our) Daddy God :)
So.. yeah, that's my inner update on what's going on lately. Still being shaken and still learning to look and depend and hope on The Lord. I don't know what else to do.
Now that the things that are not of God are being shaken, I am waiting to see things that can't be shaken that will remain. Things that are of God and not of men! :D
Good night!! :)
About Waking Up
Sooo!
Current thing that is occupying my schedule: FYP.
And time management. Or probably self control. To wake up earlier.
I do not know what is my problem but it seems very hard for me to just wake up early. I remember all my days up to when I was 18. Where everyday I NEED MUST HAVE TO wake up at 6 am, cos school starts at 7.45. Where did that old me go? Now I am freaking grateful if I can wake up at 10 am.
If I wake up early, more often than not, the day will go more organized. And my life goal now is to at least wake up at 9 lah everyday. 8 better. preease ToT
I know it's 3 am now. I should probably be asleep if I want to wake up early tomorrow.
BUT! I took a 3 hour nap justnow from 6-8.30 pm. So logic goes, 8-2.30=5.30 hours. I'm sleeping soon so I should wake up at: 3+5.30=8.30 am.
I dont know. That's the rational in my head. So nite ppl!
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Btw, I dyed my hair. I had a sudden urge after school, so just went dying it. WHen I wole up earlier, I didn't plan for it. Not much different I think.. But it has less red tint, and the color is darker (for the parts dyed before).
I tried LIESE in ASH BROWN. Here it is.
Before:
Greasy and dirty. Do you know the dye absorbs better to your hair when it's dirty? Interesting how it looks two colored. The roots had grown long.
So here it is now.
*EYEBAG ALERT* Soo byebye! I REALLY WANT TO WAKE UP EARLY TMR.
Life oh life!
How hectic, you.
Schoolworks, exhibitions,
assessments, printing shops.
Friend leaving,
everybody weeping.
Drama,
right where its not supposed to be.
Sleeping late,
Waking late.
Running man finished,
what do I watch?
Lots in mind,
twirling in circles.
What do people think?
What do they say?
Am I bothering you?
Useless thoughts.
Where are friends?
Where is warmth?
Where is peace?
It's in Jesus Christ.
I've heard that.
But I need to know it.
For it to come alive.
It is, by the way.
Where is time?
"Who's above time?"
Jesus is!
"Who are you?"
I am Yours.
And You are mine!
"Who WILL be there when you are lonely?"
You.
"Who is your bestest friend?
Who won't ever disappoint you?"
You are.
Invest your feeling in Him.
Your tears.
It won't go to waste.
Not like some,
Who has no clue a tear has dropped.
Daddy oh Daddy!
Your daughter is in you.
She's weak,
yet strong in you.
She's especially dumb,
but smart in You.
Confidence down the drain,
You are my confidence.
Hope on men down the drain,
You are my hope!
A good friend,
You provided.
A long journey,
You were there.
Jesus oh Jesus!
Woo me, woo me.
Let me drown again,
more than ever before.
I know what this is.
This is randomness.
Love and kisses,
Kims.