One way I found to make life easier:

Accept that you are not perfect.

That you make mistakes.

That people might get annoyed with you, like how you get annoyed with some people.

That you might disappoint people, like how some people has disappointed you.

That you might fail and fall sometimes.

And all that is okay. We are not God.

It's NORMAL for us to make mistakes. Nothing shocking there.

Get over it, put it under God's grace, and move on.

Change is done by the Holy Spirit, and not by your might.

Just look back to His righteousness when you fail. It's how good He is that matters, not how good you are.


I find this makes life so much easier.

Especially for a perfectionist like me.

Work.

My Imac in the office. And yes that's facebook.

I think I should've posted this post way earlier.

To be honest, I filmed a vlog about it, and then when I wanted to edit it recently, I thought it sucked. So I sacked it. Hahaha!

I've been working for over a month now.

Work is fun, actually. I like going to the office. I like the long bus rides in the morning and evening. It gives me time to think or read or listen to sermon or catch up with people (online). Or just listen to some good Christian music and just.. worship. It's the best.

Work wise, it's all mainly still in my comfort zone. Nothing too bizarre, therefore I'm pretty relaxed. There are days where a lot of stuff needs to be done. My worst OT was 10 pm. But the company provided a cab charge so it was all good. All good.

But so far, I've been feeling an inward rest. I'm happy.

Colleague wise, they are all very nice people. Obviously it isn't as comfortable as talking to someone from church, but it's still very good. No problem at all. I don't mind not talking much.

During work time, Itunes and Spotify are always on. Itunes for listening to sermons and poscasts (I copied all my sermon collection into my office Imac), and Spotify to listen to songs. Spotify is a really good software, man. I don't know how they make any profit though. There's probably some business mechanism going on that I don't understand.

Pay wise, the average fresh grad designer. But it's okay. In this weakness (average pay), His Strength is made PERFECT! I'm excited to see Him reveal something about Himself. in the financial area. But I do wish I'll get a raise. I huge one! Amen.

Are there any worries? In the beginning, of cos. Not so much about the job, but more to my future and career in general.

Then, after a few days, God spoke to me in Isaiah.

"Even to your old age I will be the same, And even to your graying years I will bear you! I have done it, and I will carry you; And I will bear you and I will deliver yoEven to your old age I will be the same, And even to your graying years I will bear you! I have done it, and I will carry you; And I will bear you and I will deliver you."
- Isaiah 46:4

It instantly calmed my heart.

God is already in my future. He's there. And of He's there, I'm good. As long as Jesus is in my boat, no storm cam harm me.

Then verses like "do not worry for tomorrow" and "His Grace is sufficient" popped up. And I know I'm in good hands.

"But don't we have to work to make money?"

True. But if God doesn't bless, no matter how hard you work, it will be a man-kind of result. I'd rather have a God kind of result. He knows what's best, and He knows how to lead me. He is my Shepherd. So where He leads, I'll just follow.

If ever I'm not following His lead (which I feel I have done countless times, I mean there's no exact way to know other than that unpeacefulness in my heart), He's a Shepherd who leaves 99 to find ONE. According to my 5 years of experience, HE draws me back. It was not my effort to crawl near Him. I was always the one receiving. He leads me back with His goodness.

We all have a good God, people.

I'm done talking for tonight. Shall enjoy my resting time now. Peace!

[ootd]

Did I just made myself seem very vain by doing this?

Hahaha! But I honestly liked what I wore that day, so I decided to document it before work.

Vain or no vain, it's posted.

I'm hungry by the way. Shall go to the kitchen and eat.

Night!!