So long since I last wrote anything. In the last 2 months, I’ve been through an internship. Lots of interesting experience, very kind boss, rad.
Been feeling busy. Although I’m not sure I am really busy or not. But feeling so.
Been feeling healthier too. My body HAS TO align with this thought. Started playing basketball again after like 7 years.. Quite self conscious. Didn’t want to do something stupid and embarrass myself. But in the end, came to a conclusion: as long as I enjoyed it and my body has some exercise, it’s cool.
Last few weeks has been a process. You probably won’t understand what the actual problem is and its ok. The Bible tells us to run away from temptation (instead of fighting it) and I’ve been doing just that, running away. In any possible way, keeping myself away. Must tell you it’s working. Seeing the fruits.
And what I’m experiencing.. This is a whole new level of trusting God. There are times when my mind tried to fix what had happened. Recreating the scene again and again, with their other possible outcomes. Maybe I shouldn’t have.. Maybe I should’ve acted differently. What happened? What did I do wrong? Why? And it all comes back to “God is in control.”
There are phrases and verses you’ve known so well. Or have heard of. Its just sometimes you need to remind yourself that you know that truth. And what I’m experiencing, is God making these verses ALIVE in my life. By the end of this, these verses won’t be just a sentence from the bible. It will be a truth. An experience. A reality!
Which verse? One of them: romans 8:28. “We are assured and know that [God being a partner in their labor] all things work together and are [fitting into a plan] for good to and for those who love God and are called according to [His] design and purpose.” Any situations going out of my control, in Christ, it still works for my good. His GPS would lead things back to His good masterplan. He is still in control.
Could things have turned out differently? Could’ve. But trust God now. Could people have thought differently? Could’ve. Could I have felt differently? Maybe. But really you can’t change what has happened. You can try to make up for it, but you cant change it. Out of the options of things I can do now, I choose to just believe that my God’s plan is unaffected by human failure. The Bible says it works for good. So EVERYTHING has to align with what it says: working for good. For those who love God. For us. For me. For you.
