berputar2

(will write in bahasa surabaya)

judul e gk ada hubungan mbek sg mau tak tulis.

tugas sudah selesaiii.. memasuki masa liburannn… namun masih tetep sibukkk…

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td habis baca blog e c jenita. ga nyangka dee isa krasa kyk gitu jg. d mataku de e kyk wes perfect pol. Jadi merasa punya teman :)

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Buat yg blm tau, saya ikutan jd apprentice nd phunk studio. Phunk tu kyk top2ane design d singapore. Isa masuk itu wes bersyukur pol.. namun tantangan2 bermunculan stlh masuk.. Gak pernah seumur idup krasa kayak gini..

inti e.. gak isa liak bakat.. liak sg kasi bakat.. liak Tuhan. N dari situ kerja keras.

pdhal pas kecil, nggambar itu sangat menggembirakan. sampek skarang juga seh.. tp lek gambare buat org lain, ada certain pressure.. lek gambar buat diri sendiri lak karepe dewe.. suka gak suka sembarangmu.. tp kebykan org malah suka seh PTL.. tp lek dikasi task suru nggambar gitu.. malah kebykan mikir.. trs isa buntu dll wes itu sg bikin gak enak..

1 hal sg ak percaya.. bertaun2 dari skr, lek inget2 masa2 apprenticeship ini, ak yakin ak gak akan nyesel..

Tuhannn… kuatkanlah anakMu ini.. hulalala.

Aneh ah nulis pake bhs sby.. enakan inggris..

Kangen rumahhh…

Pengen ngoceh2.. pengen gak mikir apa2.. N ke greja tiap hari.

Kangen mami.. Kangen papi juga.. haizooo

miss.

missing someone is quite an interesting feeling.

that being said, I miss you.

everytime..

.. my sight is not set upon the Lord, NOTHING goes right.

Things may, but my feelings won’t.

I am THAT dependent.

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*change topic.

This morning, woke up, and immediately felt something weird about my eyes, like it was swollen. Went to the mirror, here’s what I see.

I honestly thought it was kinda cool, felt like Edward (Cullen) for a moment there.

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*change topic

Went to 29:11’s first performance at blujazz. Ci Janet was amazing. Gemi and Alben too. Crazy good man, they all. The rest was cool too but since I only knew those 3, I only paid attn to them. Anyway, was an entertaining night :)

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OK, shall do my HW again. Bye world.

can we

talk?

Jacob black on giving

The giving selflessly I talked abt I think can be seen in Jacob Black, in a way. Even when Bella has alrd married Edward, Jacob still wanted to protect her.
Tho his heart was broken by her, he can still do that. He has no hope for gaining Bella’s love now, but still has her good in mind. What a friend :)

giving.

A thought just crossed my head. A few hours ago. It’s still a fresh young thought (and questions) about giving. I realized, if I traced my days, lately I have been experiencing experiences related to giving. Starting from Tuesday, to be more accurate.

An old uncle came to me. I think he has been walking around, blatantly asking money from people. He didn’t even make himself look sad or in need or anything. Very straight forward. Came to me and asked, “would you give me some money? For eating..”

For a second there I was astonished by him, how straight forward he was. So I took my wallet and gave him what I thought was an appropriate value for a meal. He took it, his eyes widened, looked me in the eye, and asked, “this much?”

My. That question broke my heart. I just looked him back in the eye and said, “yes.” He thanked me a few times, said God bless you, and left.

I can buy myself a dinner with that amount of money. For me it was a standard dinner. And PTL I know I can still afford a more expensive one. I don’t know what it meant for him. Guarantee that he will have something to eat the next day? That “this much?” question shows that it means a lot to him. Way more than what it could mean to me that time.

THEN, I still got time to think.. That money is what aunty gave me for dinner.. Now I have to use my OWN money to buy dinner.. Then the next second I was like what are you thinking Kim =.= I can’t believe my flesh, how could I have that kind of thought? After what just happened?

PTL The Holy Spirit reminded me straight away. That money was NOT mine. It is His. And I am blessed to be a blessing. It’s not that the amount was “little”. It was the fact that it wasn’t even mine to begin with. None is! I have noooo right to think that way. Yet PTL I didn’t continue with condemning myself. 

But then, this leads me to thinking of another type of giving. The one I’m experiencing now is in giving a friendship. I think giving money and not receiving anything in return from the person you give is pretty normal, if you have the heart to. But giving your time and trust in someone.. I dont think it’s as easy.

eg:

• The one you trust might not trust you as much. 


• The friend you like might not like you as much. 


• The one you find important might not find you important as much. 


• She’s your number one, you might not be hers. 


• You tell him all your stories, he might not tell his back, tho he was a good listener. 


• You would wake up in the middle of the night for him, he might not. She might be your number one, you might be her number two. Not bad, but not equal, as expected.


• the list goes on..

I think it’s normal for a human being to have a certain expectation in a friendship, or a relationship even. But we must remember remember remember that that person is bound to fail us. It’s just a matter of time. They are homo sapiens. Humans.

Is it possible to give, and never expect anything in return AT ALL? Well, Jesus died for us, knowing that not all of us would want to take benefit from it. I mean, if I die for a person, that person better not waste my death and make full use of it.

I think life would much easier if we can do that. I havent really think this through but I know I have been disappointed when people dont value me as how I valued them. And i know I have disappoint ppl too for not raising up to their expectation.

So, I think I am learning right now. I can give because I’ve been given everything by the Lord in His Son. In fact, I shall give merely because of that reason. I can serve because I’ve been served. I can care because I’ve been cared about. I think, if I can sincerely give a friendship, caring for them, being there for them, taking their tantrum when they are not at their best, understanding through their emo times, accepting them at their worst.. I think my life would be easier. Well I think it’s what we all should do since it’s what Jesus has done to us. We must REALIZE and have that revelation that it’s what Jesus has done to us!

I don’t know about you but I sure know I am a recipient of that grace. I have screamed to God, I have been crying to Him, I’ve told Him that I have no mood of reading the Bible, I have asked Him to wait when I know He wants to talk.. But never once have I been disappointed by Him. Life disappoints, He never does. He is always there, with His love and mercy. If I were God, our friendship would’ve probably ended a long time ago. Or maybe still be on talking terms, but I’ll surely keep that distance since I dont want to be hurt anymore.

But I thank God He is GOD!! All loving, always forgiving. Everytime I came back to Him, He was all about acceptance.. “..For I will forgive their wickedness and will remember their sins no more.” - Heb 8:12. And He still gave his ALL, never making a distance.

So yeah, this giving selflessly.. I don’t know if it’s going to be easy, or if this is even possible, but it sure has become one of my aims in life.

So this is my fresh brewed thought of this topic. I think I’ll learn some more. Soo TTYL :)

kakak kandung.

Another guy that i consider as one of my pretty good guy friend is this guy.



Name: Chilwin Theodoroes.

Nickname:  Awen

Age: My age + 1

Height: 185 ish ++? One of the rare species of guys who is WAY taller then me when we sit down.

Our mad friendship can be traced back to when I was 15. Which was 5 yrs ago. (wow. It’s been that long man)



He’s the giant on the LEFT (there are 2 giants in this pic).

We know each other through Ragnarok Online.

(pic frm Tony’s fb)

That time, I was a hawt hunter named Caramelle.



and he was a gunslinger named ~ A w e n ~ or something.

Then turned out he was my senior at school.

Then, I joined DOP, our ccRO guild back then. Thanks to Vivi! :D ccRO (Cute Cow RO) is an RO private server, GM: Ko Roy, also my Senior.

Then we all went to Tony’s villa. That’s when I really got to know the members of the guild. One night during the trip, I rmb he attempted to guitar us to sleep, but failed. None of us fell asleep. He’s mad good at playing guitar too! Talk about multitalented. Then, me, him, wie, and bandi walked ard Tony’s villa in the middle of the night.. LOL memory still fresh! :D And the capsa 9pm - 5am nonstop.. *drool (Since then I always bring a pack of playing card everywhere. Hence my nickname back then: Capsa Girl)

On the same trip I got extremely mad at him.. that I remember too! We now laugh about it when we talk about it.. :)

Then, we started going out as a guild together. A lot. There was this 10 days in a row we went out. It was mad fun :D I sincerely miss those days.

And.. He can drift. The ones where the tires would make that sound. I rmb us drifting (well he drifted, the rest just enjoyed) at the basement of PTC’s parking lot, on PTC’s rooftop parking, idk where else :D And of course, the memories of BATTLE GEAR!!



*ehm* presenting to you the one and only drift girl.

Edited this pic of him.



Out of the series of DOP male.



Went to WBL.. and Vivi’s villa.. I remember, in the airport when we sent Tou off, Tou walked in the departure door. I forgot what I did or say, but it caused Awen to think  I wanted to say something to Tou. He shouted Tou’s name and called him loudly back. Small memories are starting to pop into my head..

We also usually decor our school for events together. With Vivi, Titi, Andre, Evan, Yoyo, donno who else.. I think all of us were in the DKV team together!! :D led my Ce Marina!! Aaaahhh memoriess…

Then, after I repented, rmb him calling me “evangelist” all the time.. hahaha!! But didn’t flee as my friend :)

He takes very nice pics, and was the fastest rubiks cube solver in surabaya.. or indonesia? He solved it within seconds man.. Mad. He was the one who thought me how to solve rubiks cube too.

And he accompanied me buying my first ever DSLR.. thus deserve the very first proper non testing shot:



And the seller mbak asked me “kakaknya ya mbak?”. We burst out in laughter. I think it’s cute when ppl think we are siblings. That incident hence the nickname “kakak kandung”.

And taking pics for Putu..

yadda yadda yadda.. the story goes on..

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So why post about this guy?

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Coooosss..

He’s coming to Singapore next week!!

Am excited! :D

See you soon bro!! :D

this was meant to be a short post.

Sometimes I think that I can’t hide my feelings well. Sometimes it just shows. When I’m sad it shows, when I’m happy it shows. When I’m annoyed, when I’m exited, when I’m uninterested or interested. Although not all the time (I think. I think during formal occasions or when really needed I can suck it up.)

Sometimes I really need my mom. I miss the days when I’m just a little girl. She was a supermom, she is always there, always able, so perfect. Now I can only BBM her, and sometimes it takes ages for her (or anyone. Including myself) to reply.

It’s been two years since I first moved here. Away from the ones I call family, blood related or not. I would say thanks to TLG. They make it a lot easier. They make Singapore homey.

My life is definitely not boring. Entering FA Anda, being a singer for the first time at YRC, WL in FA (for the first time also), knowing what grace is, the FA split, the musical, from audition to performance, and drawing the 28 slide, dealing with the weirdest peoples I’ve ever met, liking people, the Transmission and 100 friends with Phunk, finding a collaborator, having an internship, doing my first real freelance, all that and school work, exercises, assessments, ISPs, dealing with lecturers, going to Shanghai, taking a look at the most beautiful sunset and that crazy car ride; all that and more in a year.

I learnt a lot. I tasted what stress was like. It was terrible. Life really could be stressful. Before this year, “stress” was just a word for me. The worst feeling I’ve felt before was the day I turned single again in 08, and the months following. I thought it couldn’t get worse. I was so wrong man. Now I kinda understand why people would commit suicide and stuff. Then there’s depression, and what what the list goes on, things I don’t ever want to experience. We really are living in a broken down world.

But then, if I am experiencing it, then I can overcome it. 

No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it. - 1 Cor 10:13

This verse really is true. And a lot of other verses comes to life also this past year.

“Never will I leave you; 
   never will I forsake you.” - Heb 13:5b

I learnt what this verse really means. How to hold on to it.

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. - Rom 8:28

This verse is another verse I hold onto all the time.

The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing. - Ps 23:1

Surely your goodness and love will follow me 
   all the days of my life.. - Ps 23:6a

I am calling up memories of your sincere and unqualified faith (the leaning of your entire personality on God in Christ in absolute trust and confidence in His power, wisdom, and goodness).. - 2 Tim 1:5a

Gosh.. How glad I am that I’m in Jesus! How not to fall in love? Living in a world like this without the Lord — who says He will NEVER leave me (means no matter what He’ll stay with me and keep loving me) — who can tahan? I sure cannot. Without Christ, the future is blur without guarantee. But we have the promises of God to claim, Someone to hope on, “..and hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out within our hearts through the Holy Spirit who was given to us.” - Rom 5:5

What a relief! Going through tribulations, this verse comes to live. Even when my feelings are emo, God’s promise still stands firm! It’s there, not wavered by my feelings and mood. I’m thankful to have Someone to look onto and trust forever. It’s just the matter of keep remembering that I have that Person, cos sometimes when it’s getting tough, the feelings overwhelm and I tend to worry and forget that He’s there. Then, when I finally come to Him, He is always already there with His embrace :)

This is just one of the reasons to love Him. How not to? Jesus is not a religion. He is love. I am not religious. I am in love.

its three eh em

and i’m bloooooooooooogging.

I’ve changed my idea for ISP a thousand times. oh david say yes.

Today was the first sunday in these few weeks that I didn’t see any TLG ppl. And it actually wasn’t as weird as I thought. As long as I never step out of the house.

I guess today was the most fruitful out of the ISP days. I actually created something on com. God bless me man, I havent confirmed my idea with david.

Btw David is my lecturer.

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It’s late. Shall go read some books. buybuy :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2tv5z7A3qb8

Don’t wanna say what’s best for youNo, I won’t say what’s best for youBut if I had to guess, you look stuckYou tried to do what’s right and IKnow he didn’t get just whyHe didn’t wanna fight, he gave up.You know, I just went out for band-aidsI’m thinking that’s a good place to startIf you’d let me bandage the damage,I think I really could fix your heartI wanna say I know what’s wrong,But only you can be that sureThere’s nothing I can do but be here, hereHe pushes you away and II really hate to see you cryI wish that you would come be with meChorusYea, I know I’m no miracle worker,But where can I begin?Try to fix what’s been broken andPlease don’t get my intentions twistedI don’t think he was trying toBe cruel…He didn’t wanna fight. He gave up.Chorus . “He didn’t want to fight. He gave up.” I love this line. Keeps repeating itself

11.11.11

It’s one of the most historical dates and i spent the whole day on bed. asleep. 

Thank goodness on 11.11 pm i wasnt still on bed. was with my FA :) Wouldnt want to spend that second anywhere else in Singapore. 

So, happy 11.11.11!!

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You know, in one point of your life, or maybe a few points, you will find something is just not worth it. I mean really find it. And that moment, you don’t have to force yourself anymore. Your feelings will flow naturally finding it not worth it, and you can let go.

Like a prayer being answered. It feels good.

And yes, if you’re guessing, I felt that way recently. It was just like that. Snap, and it’s gone and I’m happy. And thank God I listened to my dear Ghon. Did what she told me to do, and the whole situation of that thing that i did opened my eyes. The whole situation makes sense.

So, yeah. To “it”: a big fat BYEBYE. I deserve better.

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I once had a leader. Her name is Linda, I call her Ce Linda. I cannot not mention her in my walk with Jesus. She was a huge part of it. She was at the very beginning of it. She prayed for me for my first prayer of speaking in tongues. She was the one my dad wanted to hunt down (weird. Who is against his daughter repenting when he himself is a believer? But Thank God not anymore.) She was the one I called in the middle of the night when things go bad. She made me feel loved. She literally was a channel of God’s love. I loved her like my own sister. Noone I’ve ever met uptil now is as lembut as her. It’s almost impossible to imagine her angry.

Now she’s getting married. Her future husband better take care of her man. He gets to see her everyday and I get to miss her as she leaves.

It’s really sad that I can’t contact you like I used to. I seriously miss you. I can’t be there at your wedding. *silent moment*

Anyway, please HAVE A HAPPY LIFE!! In Christ, you deserve it :) You were such a bright light to me and many others, and I know you will continue to be one. Remember, you are a princess of God, her beloved favorite daughter, fully redeemed, overpaid by our Daddy Jesus :) Remember that you are loved, by God and by us. I hope I will meet you again!

Here she is:

we were having a barbecue that night with anak2 Remasa. I was so happy :D my first ever family in Christ. And people kept saying we look alike. I was very very happy everytime I hear that :D

I know she’s human and imperfect. But seriously, as a leader for the period she was “officially” my leader, she has NEVER disappointed me. Even if she has, there’s none that I can remember now. Again, she’s not perfect. Maybe if we stayed together for a bit longer, she might have. But reality is she has never. Just sayin.

I have amazing leaders now. Amazing. In lots of different ways. But she was the pioneer, the first. She has a certain place in my heart allocated to her.

I thank God for sending you. He knows just what type of person who could handle me at my early stage of repentance. You are such a special person. I can keep going on talking about you and thanking God for having you in my life :) Have a happy marriage ce!!! See you soon :D 

k.

had another idea. hope its approved tmr.

my my..

2 consultation didn’t go well. Some more david wants a presentation tmr with mahjong paper.

My brain pretty clogged now. WIll take a guitar and worship.

:) best retreat.

Plans.

My humble plan for today was actually to stay at home and do homework. It changed when I received a certain SMS that I shall not mention what it is about (because if some certain people know what I did I will kena scold one so it shall remain confidential).

Went to that place I needed to go to and did what I needed to do, with my loyal sidekick accompanying (he’s having his 4 hours break and was terlunta lunta. So I kindly allow him to join me).

Then, because that location was near Ikea, I decided to go there as well since I was looking for a bookshelf. Found what I needed in Ikea, but it was too heavy to carry around. Sidekick said, after work he could help me bring the thing home. So I waited for him for 3 hrs until he finish his work. Brainstormed for ISP during that period. Now come to think of it, why didn’t I just go ahead and buy it and take a cab home, since in the end, later that night we also took a cab home. No diff. -,-

So I sat at McD Marina Square for 3 hours, sketch3. Then at 8 went back to the hotel, just to see him in his uniform. Not bad, mate. Then we went back to Ikea and bought the thing.

He really carried the thing around for me. Appreciate it, bro.

Looked for somewhere to eat dinner. Ikea’s resto was closed, so we ate at xinwang. Sidekick forgot where it was so we needed to take unnecessary turns. Pity him carrying that heavy bookshelf set.

At xinwang, I chose the beef what udon, the pic looks nice. But turned out it tasted bleah. No mood to eat and I felt drained due to the confidential stuff I did. Should have just ordered porridge or something. Something easy to digest.

Funny intermezzo: Everytime sidekick raised his hand to call the waitress, none noticed and responded (unlike when I do that. Someone would respond). Hahaha!

We talked about some stuff. There’s a particular one I find very very interesting. But I’ll keep it confidential as well.

Then, after the battle with udon (in the end Sidekick pulled the bowl away from me since I think it was obvious I didn’t enjoy the meal at all and was forcing myself to finish the whole thing), we took a cab home. Gosh.. cashflow going pretty wild these few days. Thank God I just got my paycheck from boss :D

In the cab I was too drained to even talk. Sat there quietly like a piece of donno what. Pretty tired lady. (I think this two activities should not be combined together. Doing that confidential thing I did and strolling around Singapore).

Reached home at 11.30. Sidekick helped me carry the bookshelf set. Told him I can carry by myself but him being a good sidekick insisted to help. Makasih mas. Matur nuwun.

Then, in the room, I decided to ensamble the bookshelf (after I took my shower of course). Did it, and succeed beautifully :) It’s now part of my room.

So, yeah2. That was today :) chaoo

Long time nvr fill in this type of q

Belle (6)
[ ] You’ve kissed someone your friends didn’t like
[ ] You’ve been lost in the forest
[x] You love to read
[ ] You are not shy at all
[x] One of your family members is a bit weird
[x] You have done volunteer work
[x] You have a wild imagination
[x] You love to take care of people in need
[ ] You’ve had guys like you only because they think you’re pretty
[x] You’ve rejected at least one person when they’ve asked you out

Rapunzel (5)
[ ] You’re an orphaned child or have an evil step-mother
[x] You have many different hobbies to keep you busy
[x] You can get really bored
[ ] You have very long hair (at least mid-back length)
[ ] Your hair is bright blonde
[x] You’re an artsy person
[ ] You’re childish
[ ] You can’t wait to stop the same routine each day and start living
[x] You care about others and their feelings 
[x] You like to follow the rules

Alice (5)
[ ] You have/had a pet rabbit
[x] You love to play cards 
[ ] You constantly know the time 
[x] You get in sticky situations
[ ] You have been to a court
[x] You have fallen asleep while doing homework
[ ] You have had a tea party
[x] You like hats 
[x] You’re late
[ ] You know how to play croquet

Jasmine (6)
[x] Your dad is rich (AMEN)
[x] You are very clever (AMEN AGAIN)
[ ] You’ve been with someone way different from you
[x] You’re unique and different from everyone else
[ ] You’d never marry someone just because they were rich
[ ] You have set a lot of goals for yourself
[x] You don’t have a lot of (good) friends
[x] You’re independent
[x] You are wealthy (AMEN AGAIN)
[ ] Your parents try to control your life

Megara (3)
[ ] Your boyfriend is strong
[ ] You have gotten involved with the wrong people before
[ ] You are very convincing
[x] You have fallen in love before
[x] You have had your heart broken
[ ] You find an interest in Greek mythology
[ ] You lie sometimes
[ ] You pretend to be someone you’re not
[x] You have been used
[ ] Purple is one of your favourite colours

Ariel (4)
[ ] Your parents expect a lot from you
[ ] You really try to follow the rules, but it’s hard for you
[x] You’re a bit of a trouble maker 
[ ] You’re the youngest in your family
[ ] You have a lot of sisters
[ ] You collect something
[ ] You have/had long hair
[x] You are adventurous
[x] You’re extremely curious
[x] You believe everything people tell you/you’re a bit gullible

Aurora (6)
[x] You live/have lived with someone other than your parents
[ ] You almost died at a very young age
[x] You are gentle, loving, and/or thoughtful (AMEN)
[x] You have a decent singing voice 
[x] You like to sleep in late on the weekends
[x] You spend most of your time outside
[ ] You’re adopted
[x] You’re very romantic
[ ] Pink is one of your favorite colors 

Cinderella (4)
[ ] You are expected to do a lot of chores
[x] You love to dress up
[x] You love animals
[x] You are waiting patiently for your Prince Charming
[ ] Your mom is really strict
[ ] You have sisters who seem kind of jealous of you
[x] You’re afraid to speak your mind sometimes
[ ] You have left your shoes at a friends house before
[ ] You have blond hair

Snow White (5)
[x] You know that you’re beautiful (amin lah)
[ ] Sometimes it seems like your mom is jealous of you
[ ] You’ve almost been killed
[ ] You have at least seven good friends
[x] You’ve had food poisoning 
[x] You have/had short hair
[ ] You get along with almost everyone
[x] All of your friends are different
[x] You love to have a good time
[ ] You’re happier when you’re out of the house than in

Tinkerbell (0) *good. i never liked her anyways.
[ ] You get jealous easily 
[ ] You loved your childhood
[ ] You like to fly
[ ] You believe in magic 
[ ] You’re 5’2 or under
[ ] You hate pirates
[ ] You love sparkles
[ ] People underestimate you
[ ] You get angry easily
[ ] You have/had a treehouse

Pocahontas (6)
[x] You love to walk around and explore big cities
[ ] You are more spiritual than religious
[ ] You’ve been in an interracial relationship
[x] One of your family members is dead
[ ] Your parents are very protective of you
[ ] Someone you know has been in war 
[x] You love nature 
[x] You have/had black hair
[x] You would love to move somewhere exotic and beautiful
[x] You’re very adventurous

Mulan (7)
[x] You can be a tomboy sometimes.
[x] People wish you could be a bit more girly 
[x] You’ve pretended to be someone you’re not
[ ] You’ve had a physical fight with someone
[x] You have/had considered running away from home
[ ] Your parents try to plan your life out
[x] A lot of your friends are boys
[x] You sometimes find yourself in bad situations
[x] You love your family so much that you’d do anything to protect them

moolan!

November 7th, 2011

When the day started, I was still awake. Think I was reading Raditya Dika’s book. Full of nonsense yet pretty entertaining. Chatted with a few ppl on facebook.

You know, human beings can be very interesting. I’ve known a few species of interesting people. Good interesting, weird interesting.. Sometimes the weirdness is beyond what I can discern and grasp. And this type of people really does exist. So weird that it’s entertaining to a certain extent. 

Went to bed around 2.30 am, woke up at 9, then extended to 11.30. In between that period, I had one of my more interesting dreams. Dreams can be frightening, forgettable, whatever. This one is definitely categorized as interesting. There’s Cia2 in it, a random angmoh guy I don’t even know, and a few TLG people.

And in my dream I was in a relationship. Kinda forgotten how it felt like. The dream reminded me of it. There was definitely happiness. That happiness, I will only let myself feel with the right guy.

I definitely still disagree with guys chasing after more then one girl. You might beg to differ, it’s up to you. I agree with what Cici F said. Sure guys can explore. Explore first, then choose one. And pursue her, man. And while exploring, don’t mislead girls into feeling like she is being pursued. You think it’s cool meh, showing your interest in a few girls at once? Trust me it just shows the complete opposite.

Woke up cos mama called. Was 11.30. Straight away went to bathe, then had my quiet time. Had indomie for lunch, and then brainstormed for ISP. Feeling stuck, I decided to watch the “Meditate” sermon by Joseph Prince while brainstorming.

Interestingly, it was inspiring. Got a storyline for my ISP in just two hours. And I have been thinking of it for days o,o

Ps Prince is one of the funniest pastors I’ve came across. He would joke around on stage, about himself, about his pastors (esp Ps. Mark), about the Bible Characters. He’s relatable. And he looks damn young man. Here he is:

and he is

freaking

47

years old.

Can you believe it.

Really man. May our youth be renewed like the eagles. AMEN.

Later, we planned to watch “In Time”. We being me, Mardian, Christine, and Mikey. Before that, we ate at Wee Nam Kee chicken rice. It was GOOD. Should eat there again, man. Too bad when we came, the roasted chicken was finished. Sorry for being late, ppl :(

The movie has an interesting concept. I think it’s original. 

AND AMANDA SEYFRIED IS SUPER PRETTY CAN. She is GORGEOUS. Like, SUPER PRETTY. Even I as a girl love seing her face. Her eyes are huge. Perfect lips. Gosh! And that Mykey kept saying the girl from footloose is prettier. 

Guys. But yeah she’s hot.

STILL.

I love Amanda. She pretty and classy and cute. Perfection.

she’s gotten skinnier.

a zit. so what.

preettaaaaayyyyy

her smile!! :D

k enough of her gorgeousness.

I was admiring her so much that Mardian said sth like “udhlah kamu juga cantik”. Lol probably my que to shut up already :P but AMEN TO THAT BROTHA.

And ppl if you’re looking for a solitude place to watch movies, Shaw Balestier would be perfect. Not much ppl :)

Took a cab home. I rmb laughing like crazy in the cab when Mikey requested me to tell my dream I mentioned earlier to him. It was funny, the dream. Laugh worthy. Had a good laugh all the way to my room.

K good nite!! shall not sleep but signing off :) GB!

tumblr and blogspot connected!! :D

I connected my tumblr to my blogspot!! woohoo!!

bye byes

I’ve never in my life cried while sending someone off at the airport.

I think that record will be broken not too long in the future.

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PS: this is NOT an emo post. It’s just a random thought I had while cooking my indomie lunch.

061111

Went out the whole day w Mardian and Christine, later joined by Ria and Mikey.

Found out that Christine has the Ce Becky syndrome: Once laughing, hard to stop. It’s just her laugh is a silent laughter.

Went to NCC and it was awesome.

Something I lernt from Christine today that I want to exercise as well: Everytime I wake up in the morning, I’ll look at the mirror, see my face and tell myself: “You are the righteousness of God through Christ, beloved of God, greatly blessed, and highly favored!!” Maybe will add on as the days goes by.

And Mardian is such a caring guy. Comforted me when I didn’t find any shoe (I was looking for a new pair) Talk about details :D

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Lol!

I do love Sekia :)

another epitome of my dream guy. this guy. hahaha

my all time fave song

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings 
But I know you’re here with me now
We’ll make it through 
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know life so far away 
But I know that its just a trip
We’ll make it through 
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I’m praying you’re the one I’Ve build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t wanna run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?