Dedicated to my first ever follower,

HAHHAA I got my first follower in blogger and he is:

*drumroooooooollllllllllll*

Ko Petrus DHS.

So this post is dedicated to you, thank you for following!! Semoga terhibur dengan apa saja yg anakmu tulis di dlmnya wkwkkwk!!

Ok shall continue my fyp!!

03:55

In probably half an hour, my aunt will be awake. Oh wait, she's not here. So I guess I'll be safe?
It feels very weird when she's awake and ready for the day while I was just about to end mine.

Spent the day doing my FYP as usual.. Got a few pages done, I really hope I can finish by tomorrow.. And with both InDesign and Photoshop running, battery's running down pretty fast.

*quitting them*

I'm missing my family.

Argh.. When a post is titled with what time it was, you outta know I have nothing to write.

Lately, I have been marathoning Glee and Gossip Girl while doing my work. It will be super boring if not. Its not slacking, just needed something to listen to. Sometimes I listen to sermons too.

Watching Glee and Gossip Girl somehow makes me think about relationships.
Having a guy to like.. Geez, that was so long ago for me. Lately what's occupying my mind was work work work school school school.
And having the guy like you back.. How long has it been? 4 years?
Liking someone is a beautiful feeling, I think. You get all blushy and happy and nervous. And it always brings me back to my sec school period, when I first had a mutual feeling with a guy..

Gosh that was ages ago!!

Anyway, HAPPY EASTER!!

Two thousand years ago The Love of my life rose from the grave to save all of us :)

And yeah, the first time I fell in love with Jesus, I had that feeling too. It was almost like a crush. It's beautiful.

So.. off to bed now! Byebye!

50 people!

So!

In a night, my pageview goes from 91 (I knoww.. pathetic right -,-) to 140. When it has been around 90 ish for like, weeks? This is exponential growth, people.

I guess that's thanks to my tumblr post, stating the existence of this blog?

Anyway, readers, thanks for reading! :)

So, what's up with the name of the blog? 'Like an Avalanche'?
It's from Hillsong's song.

Lyrics:
Verse 1
Beautiful God
Laying Your majesty aside
You reached out in love to show me life
Lifted from darkness into light
Oh

Verse 2
King for a slave
Trading Your righteousness for shame
Despite all my pride and foolish ways
Caught in Your infinite embrace
Oh

Chorus 1
And I find myself here on my knees again
Caught up in grace like an avalanche
Nothing compares to this love love love
Burning in my heart


Verse 3:
Saviour and Friend
Breathing Your life into my heart
Your word is the lamp unto my path
Forever I'm humbled by Your love
Oh

Bridge
Take my life
Take all that I am
With all that I am I will love You
Take my heart
Take all that I have
Jesus how I adore You

Chorus 2
And I find myself here on my knees again
Caught up in grace like an avalanche
Nothing compare to this love love love


And what is an avalanche?
av·a·lanche  (v-lnch)

n.

1. A fall or slide of a large mass, as of snow or rock, down a mountainside.

2. A massive or overwhelming amount; a flood: received an avalanche of mail.

v. av·a·lanched, av·a·lanch·ing, av·a·lanch·es

v.intr.

To fall or slide in a massive or overwhelming amount.

v.tr.

To overwhelm; inundate.

"Caught up in grace like an avalanche." Isn't that just beautiful? His grace is all over me, not just there, but going full force over me (and you!) that it's overwhelming, more than what we can comprehend. I think that's beautiful :)

I think I have lots to share, but I need to do my work.

So see yaw!!

PS: If by any chance in the universe Jeremy Lin would read this, do get well soon!!! And I hope one day we can meet and be friends :D

Culturepush

Sooo!

I was having lunch when suddenly Williana, a friend at NAFA, told me she saw my artwork at Culturepush. 

What is Culturepush, you ask? It's a website, and according to it's fb page, "Culturepush tracks cool art, culture and design in Singapore with a focus on young undiscovered artists."

I was bewildered, had no idea about it. So I checked and it's true!! And I was so exited!! :D Never thought it would happen..

Sun Lee, my collaborator is an amazing artist. The patterns and artwork she creates are amazing :D Go check her page!

And in the end, all the glory goes to God :) Thank You Jesus! He made this possible! I hope none of you think I'm overreacting or anything.. I am really happy!

Seeyaw!

I dont know

I don't know what I'm doing here.

Hebrew 12:7 The words "once more" indicate the removing of what can be shaken -- that is, created things -- so that what cannot be shaken may remain. Shaking? Yeah, I feel that. All that is not of God in me is being shaken pretty hard. To sum it up, I have always been confident at my design and drawing skills. Now? None. Confidence and pride all as low as.... I dont know.. low.. If not gone.. I don't post a lot in blogger.. I usually do it in Tumblr and then copy it here.. But his post is not going to go to Tumblr.. This is personal and I'm at a very hard place now. Or maybe it's just PMS, I don't know. From being so sure of design, I'm not that sure anymore. At all. I'm not sure this is my place, I don't know if I want to do this forever. Not bragging, but I'm honestly more interested in going to Nigeria to feed the poor or go to the hospital and pray for healing or something than going to exhibitions ._. I don't know if that's normal. People who likes art should be excited to go to these exhibition places? But me, whenever there's an exhibition coming up, I feel pressured to come. Because I'm a designer and I need to educate myself. But when Israel Houghton came, $80 dollars would fly off my pocket just like that. Is that normal (for you not being that excited on events on your field of interest)? Does that happen to everyone? Or is it just me? Don't get me wrong, I still love drawing and design. I enjoy looking at art blogs and browsing behance and reading design and illustration magazines and buying books about it, I love them!! :D I would be more than happy to do projects.  But is that what I want to do for a living? Or just a hobby and past time? And why am I even having these thoughts? Is it that it really deep inside I'm uninterested or that I'm just lazy? Not a lot of my friends in class, as far as I know, are roaming around in exhibitions and design events outside school. I don't know. I want to grow. Lately I kept thinking that going into Graphic Design is a mistake. Should've taken Illustration, where my real passion is. But I believe regrets are useless. If God lets me be here, He has a plan. That's the only thing keeping me going now. And it will all work for good. I am just in the process of that "will". So, now that all my confidence in myself is gone, I only, only, can look and hope in Jesus. Even in my time management. Think about me all you want, that time management is my own responsibility and discipline and stuff, but I am that bad at time management (especially waking up on time), that I feel hopeless in myself that I need to come to The Lord to help me!! So me in myself, is literally good at nothing. (this is my complete honest feeling right now. Call me emo, whatever.) Talking about waking up in the morning, last night I was so desperate in wanting to wake up in the morning feeling FRESH and not tired and sleepy. Usually I would put my alarm clock in multiple times. For a 9 am class: 5 am, then 6 pm, which I would keep snoozing till 7 am, sometimes 7.30 or 7.45 (which by then I would need some king of divine intervention to not be late.) So, if I crawl to my bed at 1 am (where I would fall asleep at 1.30 or 2), I only had 3.5-4 hours of nonstop sleep, and 1 hour after 5 pm, and the rest would be multiple 10 minutes sleep in between the snoozes. And there would be times where my blackberry would be covered by my pillow, and I can't hear the alarm, and got waken up by my aunt's scream, and I would be like cos I didn't get my "extra" sleep. (Reason I set the alarm that way, besides to make sure I wake up, is because I enjoyed that feeling when you wake up and found out you still can sleep) So, last night, I got really tired of that tired feeling when waking up in the morning that I came to The Lord, asking Him to MAKE ME wake up on time tomorrow without the tired feeling or the feeling for not having that extra sleep. I was tempted to just let it all go, without any alarms at all. But I guess I still needed to grow in faith, so I still set my alarm up at 8. I HAVE to wake up at 8 if I don't want to be late. So guess what. I woke up in the morning peacefully like

and guess what the time was. 7:56. Just a few close minutes before the annoying alarm rang. I can see the humour in that. It's like God showed me He really can wake me up. And it's just at the very last minute, as if.. *how to explain ah..* As if He's showing His victory to win my faith over the alarm, waiting until the very last minute to add to the drama and klimax. So playful, that's my (our) Daddy God :)


So.. yeah, that's my inner update on what's going on lately. Still being shaken and still learning to look and depend and hope on The Lord. I don't know what else to do. 


Now that the things that are not of God are being shaken, I am waiting to see things that can't be shaken that will remain. Things that are of God and not of men! :D


Good night!! :)

About Waking Up

Sooo!

Current thing that is occupying my schedule: FYP.

And time management. Or probably self control. To wake up earlier.

I do not know what is my problem but it seems very hard for me to just wake up early. I remember all my days up to when I was 18. Where everyday I NEED MUST HAVE TO wake up at 6 am, cos school starts at 7.45. Where did that old me go? Now I am freaking grateful if I can wake up at 10 am.

If I wake up early, more often than not, the day will go more organized. And my life goal now is to at least wake up at 9 lah everyday. 8 better. preease ToT

I know it's 3 am now. I should probably be asleep if I want to wake up early tomorrow.

BUT! I took a 3 hour nap justnow from 6-8.30 pm. So logic goes, 8-2.30=5.30 hours. I'm sleeping soon so I should wake up at: 3+5.30=8.30 am.

I dont know. That's the rational in my head. So nite ppl!

.

Btw, I dyed my hair. I had a sudden urge after school, so just went dying it. WHen I wole up earlier, I didn't plan for it. Not much different I think.. But it has less red tint, and the color is darker (for the parts dyed before).

I tried LIESE in ASH BROWN. Here it is.

Before:

Greasy and dirty. Do you know the dye absorbs better to your hair when it's dirty? Interesting how it looks two colored. The roots had grown long.

So here it is now.

*EYEBAG ALERT* Soo byebye! I REALLY WANT TO WAKE UP EARLY TMR.

Life oh life!

How hectic, you.

Schoolworks, exhibitions,

assessments, printing shops.

Friend leaving,

everybody weeping.

Drama,

right where its not supposed to be.

Sleeping late,

Waking late.

Running man finished,

what do I watch?

Lots in mind,

twirling in circles.

What do people think?

What do they say?

Am I bothering you?

Useless thoughts.

Where are friends?

Where is warmth?

Where is peace?

It's in Jesus Christ.

I've heard that.

But I need to know it.

For it to come alive.

It is, by the way.

Where is time?

"Who's above time?"

Jesus is!

"Who are you?"

I am Yours.

And You are mine!

"Who WILL be there when you are lonely?"

You.

"Who is your bestest friend?

Who won't ever disappoint you?"

You are.

Invest your feeling in Him.

Your tears.

It won't go to waste.

Not like some,

Who has no clue a tear has dropped.

Daddy oh Daddy!

Your daughter is in you.

She's weak,

yet strong in you.

She's especially dumb,

but smart in You.

Confidence down the drain,

You are my confidence.

Hope on men down the drain,

You are my hope!

A good friend,

You provided.

A long journey,

You were there.

Jesus oh Jesus!

Woo me, woo me.

Let me drown again,

more than ever before.

I know what this is.

This is randomness.

Love and kisses,

Kims.