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You and the ant.

Picture this scene.

You are walking on an empty roadside when you suddenly feel a tiny stinging pinch on your left foot.

You take a look and see a red ant slowly crawling away. The ant that just bit you. You did nothing wrong and it just bit you. Mean ant.

You keep on walking.

Slowly, from afar, you hear the growing sound of a car nearing. You are walking on the roadside so you know you are safe.

Suddenly, the ant crosses your mind.

You turn around and take a look, and there it is, smack dab in the middle of the road, crawling slower than Jupiter orbiting the sun.

Your gaze went back to the car. It shows no sign of slowing down.

As certain as elementary maths, it's gonna crush the ant.

Its head is gonna splat open and all its body fluid splashing out, painting the cold hard asphalt. A few of its legs might get stuck on the tires, taking them with the car wherever it may go.

Suddenly, this overwhelming feeling of compassion fills you. Poor thing! How do I save it? Its wife might be waiting underground. Should I grab it, take it with me and run across? No, there's no time!

You can't think anymore. Empathy overwhelms you, and ignoring logic, you jump in front of the car in the effort to stop it.

The driver sees you. He tried to hit the brake but it was way too late. The car hits you in full force and you were flung a few meters ahead. The car stops eventually, the driver ran to your aid and tried calling the ambulance with his phone.

Everything is a blur. Time passes by very slowly. You feel your consciousness calmly leaving you. Your whole body is hurting. Bad. Probably a couple of broken bones. Can't move our legs. Perhaps another broken bone there. From the corner of your eye, you saw your own blood leaking from your head, your nose, your ears.. Forming a pool of blood around you.

Then, right there next to your growing pool of blood, you see the ant, still crawling slowly trying to cross the road.

It doesn't even stop to find out what just happened. All the loud noises of the bangs and crashes, bodies flying around, screeching sound of the tires.. No cares given. It is just minding its own business, completely oblivious towards the sacrifice you just made to save its life.

So there the ant goes. The ant that just bit you. It's perfectly healthy while you are laying there, dying.

By the time you vaguely hear the siren of the ambulance, your lungs give up. You breathed out your last breath.



*end*



Lol okay I know the story makes no sense. Whoever on earth with a sane mind would do that, right? I for sure will not!

Yet, that story doesn't even scratch the surface of the reality of how God died for us, mere men.

What men has ever done was hurt God. For thousands of years, breaking God's heart over and over again. But yet, Romans 5:6, 8 says, "You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly.. ..But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us."

God find it the right time to die for us while we were still at our worst: knowing nothing about God, wanting nothing to do with God, being God's complete enemy.. Apparently that's when God found it to be the right time to die for us.

It shows that men did nothing to move God. God moves because of Himself and who He is.
It shows that His love has nothing to do with how we perform. We don't persuade God to move. It doesn't work that way. It has never been a reward. Salvation is an act of love!

Jesus died, knowing fully that a good portion of the ones He died for will still reject Him, or be completely oblivious to what He has done. And yet, He still went to the cross.

Even if you are the only ant left in the world, He would still jump in front of that car.

And using the analogy of a human and an ant to show how big God is and how small we are still doesn't cut it. It's pretty far off. Even the story itself lacks in various areas. He didn't die helplessly like you did in the story. He willingly gave up His life. The nails didn't keep him on the cross. Love did!

And most of all, you died in the story. He rose again.

With God, it's a story with a happy ending!

The bizarreness of a human dying for an ant might help you a little in seeing the magnitude of what God did for us on the cross. This revelation helped me to understand that a little better. I hope it does to you as well!

Good night! :)

EPIC.

A quick update on an emotional roller coaster of a day.

Story 1.

So me and Ghon were scheduled to lead worship at 180 Teens, which is basically the teens ministry of our church.

The song sequence was:
1. Savior King (Me)
2. One Day (Ghon)
3. Salvation is Here (Me)
4. You (Me)
5. This is Our God (Ghon)

So song number 1 and 2 rolled without any problem. Ghon ended One Day nicely.

Then, it was my turn to start leading Salvation is Here.

So the musician played the intro and it was all good.

The verse was coming in 3.. 2.. 1..

..And I sang the verse of One Day.

Instead of Salvation is Here.

All the singers and musician and the rest of humanity was pretty surprised I guess. Moreover, I sang it super confidently and it took a few seconds for me to realize I was singing the wrong song. I was wondering why I wasn't hearing a smooth melody of words.

So anyway. I apologized frantically while a few of them were laughing, and we started over.

End of Story 1.


Story 2.

After the service, I Whatsapped one of my leaders telling what just happened (story 1).

Then, I felt the urge to go to the toilet. So while Whatsapping, I made my way to the nearest toilet.

According to my subconscious memory, the female toilet on that particular mall was on the left. So I turned left.

Then I realized the alignment of the washbasin was a tad different.

So I looked up, off my iPhone screen..

..And saw half a dozen of men looking back at me.

*dramatic silence*

I apologized frantically again and fled the scene. What else can I do.

End of Story 2.


Conclusion.

Well there are no moral values to these stories. I just wanted myself to remember it. Such an epic day.

So, I'm gonna sleep now. See you all soon!

Babay!

Labels!

Was just arranging my posts. Turns out Blogger has this thing called "Label", which was somehow workable into creating this post-categorizing thing.

Which kinda helps I guess.. It separates my posts for my readers. My faithful (plus minus sign) 30 readers who somehow kept reading the posts I did not share. Thank you so much!

I haven't been writing a lot since I started working. But the passion is coming back, so I do hope I'll be writing more. There's a lot of stuff in my head.

It seems that my life is starting to stir up.

I got my first freelance job as an Illustrator just out of nowhere (thanks Vina!) and I really enjoyed it!

Working on my website, which sadly still has no content in it since I haven't been drawing much for 4 years.

Planning to join this award thing with my friends. Hope that works out.

That door seems to be creaking open just a bit.

And no romance whatsoever.

Now, I really really want a caucasian partner. If I do not manage to get one, I think I'll be wondering for the rest of my life how dating a caucasian would be like. So Daddy please PLEASE, make my other half a caucasian. Either that or Jeremy Lin (yes still in deep love with him).

So good night good people! See you!

IMPROVE DESIGN

Is there any way to improve the design of Blogger? Cos honestly it sucks, which is a little disappointing knowing that Google backs this platform up.

If there isn't, I am seriously considering of moving to Wordpress :/

[illustration] Do not trust.

This piece is inspired by Proverbs 3:5.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding"

The MSG version puts it in a cooler way. "Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don’t try to figure out everything on your own."

Doesn't this one verse set you free? Well it definitely set me free, especially in the area of getting what I do or do not deserve.

We were thought all our lives, one plus one equals two. Too much fat will increase weight. Lack of experience means less pay. Bad first impression means unsalvageable relationship.

I'm not implying that all those are wrong. It's just that we have a third and most important variable here, which (or who) is GOD. He just interferes with what we think is natural, defies all logic, and delivers results often times beyond our reasoning.

Who would've thought water could turn into wine? He bypasses the time needed to turn grapes into wine. Yet, in the first place, water and grapes are universes apart. One cannot turn into the other. (John 2:1-11)

Who could've explained how the blind could see by putting dirt (which theoretically would make you even blinder) onto the eyes? (John 9:1-41)

Or how the dead be brought back to life? (John 11:1-44)
Or how nature would listen to the words of a young carpenter? (Mark 4:35-41)
Or how He would transform a few tough rough fishermen, tax collectors, Christian TORTURER and MURDERER and men of them sorts into Spirit filled, wise, and brave apostles, spreading the gospel that we live by today?

Or how He has bought you from where you were to where you are now?

We've seen all over the bible that He defies natural understanding.

Inexperienced? You have Jesus.
Awkward first meeting? You have Jesus.
Boss just scolded you? You have Jesus.
Bad scores? You have Jesus. Your future is not doomed.
Bad breath? You have Jesus. She might not even smelled it at all.
Chubby? You have Jesus. He might prefer them curves!

So, use your brain, but don't trust it completely.
Jesus might just prove you wrong.


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Illustration wise.

I've never really used watercolor before, though I've always liked it. I think I was too lazy to get the papers and stuff. Even this one isn't done on proper water color paper.

I figured I have a job, so I have nothing to lose now. I'll just draw what I want.

Update si ganteng (2)

Setelah mencoba di stalk (nemu fb, instagram n twitter e lho! Pro), nampaknya doi bukan tipeku. Walau physically almost perfect, kayaknya personality wise, ak lebih gahar. Trs twitternya mention2an sama cewe2 buanyak banget. Trs buat ukuran cowo, foto diri sendirinya d instagram agak melebihi batas normal.

I know melalui gini tok ga bisa fully judge him. Tp tak bisa dipungkiri, level ke ngefans an udah menurun.