21 - ONE of Your Favorite Shows

Yes. After a year of halt, I decided to continue the 30 days challenge, skipping day 20 cos the question is too boring ("How important do you think education is." Quick answer: It doesn't guarantee you a lot of money and a happy life. But it does give you certain head start I guess. 6/10.)

Now, choosing one out of the tons of shows that I watch is tough!!

There's Sherlock for its plot and impeccable presentation and Benedict Cumberbatch.
There's The Mentalist, mainly for its plot.
There's ANTM with their skinny set of legs and beautiful shots.
There's Running Man because it's Running Man.

But I'm currently marathon-ing HIMYM so let's just talk about that.

HIMYM stands for How I Met Your Mother, and it's a sitcom about how Ted, perceivably the main character, finds his wife. It takes him 9 seasons to do so, and according to my brother, it ends tragically.

But for the most parts, it's pretty entertaining. And it's pretty REAL.

Relationships are messy, feelings are messy. There are break-ups, confusions, flings.. Sometimes you think you like someone but you actually don't, sometimes the 2 main characters who were supposed to end together doesn't (reminds me of Sally and Ko Rendy), feelings change, people change, life changes.. It's relatable and light and I like it!

Fave character? Barney!
Fave relationship? Barney x Robin!

Well I'm only up to season two so maybe opinions will change.

See you tomorrow!

Life thinks it's humorous.

Q broke my heart last year. R was a loyal listening ear.
R broke my heart this year. Q cheered me up!

(Well maybe heartbreak is an excessive term to use, it's not like we got together or anything. I'm sure a lot of broken couples had it worse. But it's that period where you are just sad that things didn't work out. Just feeling.. down.)

Life works in funny ways. Or perhaps the credit goes to God. It's funny how the guy who could inflict so much sadness last year would cause so much happiness today. I can almost see the humor in it. It's  funny when you think about it.

And please. I don't get my heart broken so easily. Out of 4 years of blogging rarely do I ever write about the topic!

These are the only two guys whom I've given serious thought about since I broke up with le ex 6 years ago. The only two men whom I had consciously allowed the possibility to hurt me.

But yeah. I Thank God for today. I had a lot of laughs and he cheered me up a lot. Maybe without even noticing it.

Today reminded me why I fell for him last year.
Reminded me how we used to click so much.
Reminded me that I got over him eventually.

Which tells me that this too shall pass. God is still great and He still loves me.

Any regrets? None! 

All is so good!

When it breaks.

I'm gonna try to define what heartbreak is like for you.

It's that moment when you decide that you trust someone enough to give a piece of your heart to.

It's when you open the gates a bit, lower the bridge for a while, let the guards down for a little, so that they can squeeze in and find themselves in that space you've created for them. If they behave well, you might just give them a stool to sit on. Or maybe a comfy couch. With some wi-fi near by. It depends.

It's when you decide that you're gonna be vulnerable enough, granting them a certain permission to affect you, lending them a pen to write on your book, trusting them with a piece of yourself.

Heartbreak.
Is when that piece breaks.

Sure, there are a few who would intentionally do it.

But there are also some well meaning humans who would just unintentionally mistreat your piece, simply because they're humans.

It might be too rough for their comfort. 

It might be too high maintenance for their liking. 

It might be too frail. 

Or, it might simply slip off their hands and shatters.

I guess we can't escape it.

The ideal situation is after we give our hearts to Jesus, they are kept in a high security glass box. No interaction. No one inside. No access. Safe.

But apparently God puts us here, with 6 billion others, where friction is unavoidable, and a few fractures here and there are simply expected.

The only difference is that He's got us covered in the case the unfortunate happens. It's like an ultimate insurance.

If your heart is broken, you’ll find GOD right there; if you’re kicked in the gut, he’ll help you catch your breath. - Psalm 34:18 MSG

So in the unlikely event where your heart breaks, He gives you the ultimate remedy:

Himself.

He whose commands calmed the storms. 

He who walks on raging waters. 

He whose touch cleansed the lepers. 

He whose smile draws kids nearby. 

He whose words brought the dead back to life.

He whose love for you nailed Him to the cross.

If your heart is broken, you'll find THIS kind of God, waiting there.

And truthfully, who else would you rather find? Your heart is in good hands now :)

Mine is too.

So good night peeps. Good night!

Of God

You know, there are things which you know are just "of God".

When you want something so bad and everything looks promising, and yet it somehow didn't happen. It's "of God".

Or. When you just want to throw it all away, yet somehow it comes back running and you're glad it did. It's "of God". 

I've experienced one. Will the other one follow along?

Ramdon.

Do you ever feel tired after crying?

It's weird right. It's theoretically just a few drops of body fluid falling of your eyeballs. Yet, it seems to drain all your energy. Your heart beats faster, your breath becomes shorter, your facial muscles shrinks and swells up afterwards, it's like exercise! 

Well, the thought just suddenly popped in my head. I should google this afterwards. We continue learning after school right.

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I came to realize that sunlight does good stuff to your mind. What seemed to be so severe the night before doesn't seem to be a big deal at all in the morning. Which goes to show that I really need to sleep now. Get the night over and done with and just be in the light sooner.

Am I having a frikkin PMS?

Good night.

New blog!!

Helllllo Readers!

It's been over lifetimes since I've last written here. That's what working does to you I guess. It used to take me hours to write a substantial post, and I don't have that kind of time while working.

So I'm kinda here to kinda announce that I kinda have a new blog! Lol

It's here at brimlyke.tumblr.com so go ahead and check it out! :D

Looks something like this :D

Blogger will still be up. Stuffs here will be a lot more personal.

Tumblr will be more focused on my illustrations. Each post will be accompanied by an illustration, whether it's related to what's written or not :D

Why Tumblr? Simply cos the layout is better. Blogger's design sucks #sorrynotsorry.

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I'm currently taking a 3 weeks break in Surabaya.

Seeing my 2 little siblings brings me more joy than anything else. They grow up too fast. I grow up too fast.

I've been soaking myself in all the chillies I can find.

See this goodness? SEE IT? 

Life is good and slow here. There's Bryan and his oblivion towards the universe, Aiko and all her drama, my mom with all her grown up drama, and dad with his constant unsatisfied nagging.

But this is home as I know it. And I'm in it :)

In the present.

We're living in the NOW.

He's present NOW.

We're blessed NOW.

In a significantly unclear future, His promises are at work, now.